jian dan

2011-09-03T22:59:00.003+08:00

Hey! its September! Hello September! goodbye august! goodbye sorrow... for now i guess. i know i have awesome friends around me! =) uh huh! thanks! always remember it! thanks for always being there for me even when i feel damn lost. which is like always ! but thank you all very much =)

There were alot of Hellos and Goodbyes in this past 6 months. what can i say? people change. true colours are shown. i know what you are like now. i know what i am now. i knw how to work better now. thanks for showing me the way.

my face, kinda , seem to know how to smile better now. but i am still left here pondering, wondering whether i am doing the right thing or not. sitting by the fence.

I witness lots of break up, quarrels, fights, dispute, misunderstandings.. etc. it isnt good when you are always the middle man. life sucks when you are caught in between. thats right.

But hey, why not just live life to the fullest, although i cant, cause my heart is currently tied down. like a stone stinking deep into the depths of the ocean. I guess, i shall end it here. this are all my thoughts for today and this month. i hope everything goes smoothly.

P.S. Pictures shows my feelings.

2011-08-02T21:38:00.002+08:00

How long has it been since i last laugh or smile like this? quite long i guess. Life was nv the same when i told you the three words. nv. i guess i should stop caring about you. when you talk to him, you seem happier, so its best to not interfere.

Argh! stupid! if only things like our body has an off or on switch. off the heart, off the eyes. off the brain. perfect life alr.

time.... just bloody reverse pls.

OK! now i have to drag my tired body to school tmr and get stabbed with knifes then come home to heal. sorry body , you need to last one more sem. its gonna be fun.. NOT

life has not been smooth this few days, what i hope now is to forget about this thing and move on, its pretty hard, but it will be going off soon. lets go

2011-07-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

Tmr is gonna be a busy day. going out with cousin to watch harry potter... for the second time. and then heading down to vivo for class gathering. kinda tired, but it should be worth it. i just wanna put everything behind and just enjoy my day, for a moment please.

Recently, i had a talk with my chef, its kinda taxing on me, i feel so fail as a group leader. i dont even think i deserve an A for my aisan kitchen. i screwed up my rice and wasnt a good leader at all. i didnt give out good commands. My group is like a nation falling into pieces. i really cant keep it together anymore. i fail as a leader, i fail as a team member. i dont wanna hurt anyone, nor do i wanna kill our team. its tough.

AHHH! can i get a break from school? like really break. cause i cant stand it alr. its kinda stupid and i feel tired . really really tired. i have my own problems, but other people just wanna put more of their problems on me. why? WHY ME?

and i am kinda stupid now trying give you guys some time together. but its kinda better to be alone thinking about things in the toilet then go over to there and see things i dont wanna see. argh! i am so stupid! .

everything has change, ya. everything. GTFO pls. GTFO. i am sick and tired of this nosense. JUST FUCK OFF.

i am seriously tired, stop creating troubles. stop it for you and for me.

2011-06-26T00:26:00.002+08:00

Guess now, i am like a damn tired baby. I need so hugs, some time alone, some people around me and yeah . that.

I am tired alr. so please stop pressing me, i am going out of my mind soon. things arent making sense and they never will. you are saying one thing and doing another. whats the point? whats the link?

Commis challenge, business proposal, case studies, APEL, standized recipes.... oh god, its driving me crazy, YOU ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY.

Seriously, sometimes, you gotta use your damn brain or it will rottt. Gosh i am easily irritated today.

I need some time, i need some fresh air, i need some company.

its getting blurry now, guess its time to sleep . NIGHTS ALL!

2011-06-16T12:29:00.004+08:00

Recently, maybe its my eyes having problems, or its just me, trying to hold back. my eyes seems to be watery, guess, my heart is spilt into many pieces. if my heart is alive i wanna ask , WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID! but , i guess all this lonely walks is not doing any good, it doesnt matters anymore.

Did we drifted further away from each other after i told you that? i am kinda confuse you know, why do i always make it so complicating?! why? i have so much questions! but i know i cant ask it. i have to suck it up and endure the pain alone. eh, sorry heart.

ok ENOUGH! i recently found out, i have a new habit, and its kinda freaking me out, this few days, i keep observing people's behaviour and movements. i wanna learn more about that. ARGH thats so weird man .

Recipes, recipes and more recipes. i dont hope this thing end quickly, but i hope for lesser stress! maybe its me. Anw, my sec school friends are asking me out, i seriously dont feel like going out, i hope to be stuck in my home, thinking about nothing, doing nothing, blocking out the world. because i know, once i am outside, i will think of you, i will miss you, I WANNA SEE YOU! and i dont wanna be so clingy or i dont wanna spoil . for you guys. HERE IT GOES AGAIN THINKING SO MUCH! . F.

I kinda like reading your livejournal , its so ...profound? oh gosh, i read hundred plus of it alr. and i was wondering why time is passing so quickly.

sometimes, i wonder if you ever think of me, or whatever. but sometimes, i dont wish to go outing with you all, but my heart wants and is dying every min i dont go. imagine the state it is in. PSSHT.

but, hey, i am not a flirter. or whatever it is spelt. i dont go liking girls anyhowly! << new word. but still, you are kinda special, unique, cute?, weird. it doesnt make sense! nothing does anw. chillax. and smile , i guess thats what i can do. for now.

I know its gonna be a tough ride for me now, its the worse and its hurting badly. why isit hurting me so badly? i am not sure why, but one thing i know is that, it hurts cause i like you, and its true, so yeah. i like you more than anything in this world.

in order to numb myself, LETS SPAM SONGS. currently spaming (the script- for the first time)

She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard

She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time
I've got a new job now in the umemployment line
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess, it's a God's test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my fight
But we both know how, how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt

Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Doing things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time (x2)
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

P.S your mood, affects my mood, your movements are nocticed, a smile from you, melts the entire heart of mine, life would be so empty , if you didnt exist so , please stay .

2011-06-05T22:02:00.002+08:00

Sunday, a few more hours, school starts again. this few days, everything seems to be blurry, messy and black and white for me. Kinda screwed up this few days. I dont know why am i in this course anymore, no one gave me a reason, not even i. but i know i cant quit half way thats for sure.

My heart is in a mess too, i am not sure about this feeling, isit a crush? or is it just a friendship? i hate this feeling very much.

I hate it when i am talking to you and suddenly , everything just stops. Its just so....

i hope i can get over this week and go on to the two week holidays and try to know more about you, the feelings and everything else.

I guess i should stop talking about this! ok anw CCM are bonding well now, at least for most of the people. Its not that we wanna outcast you, its just that you outcasted yourself or, you just dont listen. sometimes, it doesnt kill you to not be so selfish, yeah you wanna win, yeah you wan good grades, but for first, think, getting good grades and winning at the expense of your friend, dont you feel bad at all? come on , its your friend dude, people must learn to co-exist or you can boody go dig a hole and just bury yourself there. i hope when commis challenge comes, he will change if not, the whole team is going to suffer.

ARGH! alrights. gotta go sleep alr and you are still online.... nah, nvm.

P.S For each goodnight or goodbye you said to me, i remember. stay strong.

2011-05-24T21:48:00.006+08:00

Alright, gotta keep this post short and sweet, so i will let the pictures describe it.

Yeah, kinda miss the orientation, miss the fun, miss the joy . although i had to wake up early for the orientation, it was a fruitful one cause, i get to de-stress huh. maybe for some parts.

alrights, i am kinda keep seeing this everywhere recently, cause i am making it. hmmm. got cravings for it.

so this is what i wanna do and i hope, i get to do it with you soon! kinda tired.

"I guess, i rely on you too much alr, sometimes, its best to let go." what a phrase.

Life goes on even when you are met with lots of mistakes and all. kinda tired and having no mood to open my mouth now. i dont feel like talking, dont feel like thinking. dont feel like doing when i see your post, i kinda .... late. always am. alrights! tmr i need to go school! need to sleep early alr. Nights.

( GILLIAN YOU ROCK)

2011-05-15T01:02:00.003+08:00

Kinda feeling moodless right now. not sure why, maybe its cause of you. maybe not. maybe its cause of my test. what over is over, lets just look forward for our result

What ever it is, i always wanna be alone but not lonely, being alone lets you think more and all. guess what, i have not been spending solitary moments alone thinking about stuffs and you, so you know how tired i am right now. DAMN tired. i am like spaming 0330 by u-kiss. Emo song , and hence i am going to sleep like this.

I like the moment when we talk , even about unrelated stuffs . i like the moment we share about each other's personal life. so i guess, i am kinda attached to you. yeah i am. oh well time to sleep and wake up to admire my home's sencery of the sea.

till then, goodbye =)

2011-05-02T17:08:00.013+08:00

How long has it been, that i have last Blogged??!! haha so long, oh well, was busy with things and had fun during this one and a half month of holiday till now, i am still having fun. i realisee, i have been juggling my life with my secondary school friend, course mates and empire mates. they are like a part of my daily life. hope this would last ;)

ok lets go to talking about my school, i really like going to school now, but waking up at 6 am everyday, i feel you JC students =( . but what maters most is the product of your labour, your blood and your sweat all invested into this course and you bear a fruitful result. isit great? yup it is.

actually, i miss the old times, hope i can go back to be a kid again and relive everything, but i know, i just gotta move on. alrights. GOODLUCK EVERYONE , good luck to that special you ;)

Casey Heynes Talks Fighting Back To Bully On A Current Affair! ( FULL I...

2011-03-28T23:54:00.001+08:00

This boy, is really something. No matter what abuses people do to him, he still continues and not let that get the better of him, but people always have a limit and this boy, really did the right thing. He somehow reminds me of myself when i was still in primary school, but i wasnt as strong as him, emotionally and mentality. but at least i did was survive through it. i really admire him is the fact that, although being bullied, he didnt make his parents feel worried about him by just shrugging it off and say i am fine .

Being bullied in school and trying to not let your parents worried, thats not very easy. why? cause i have been through that. this makes the victim feels inferior and an outcast of the society, unwanted and like a trash. i didnt get a normal school kids life during my primary school years, everything was hellish and even the maids abuse you, how worse can that be? not pretty much when your own parents dont even have the time for you. well i am glad all thats over, hope everything dont repeat again.

to think of it, i looks like i am living in a sad sad life, but there are friends like YANJUAN and lijin who are always there for me to talk to. thank you. but still, although how sad my life is, there are more people out there that are having a more sadder life, like this casey guy.

But now, people tends to treat me as a sub, it just feels so , left out . oh well , just smile and move on. lets head off to bed and then wake up for camp tmr morning. Goodnights!

2011-03-10T00:04:00.002+08:00

Someone told me recently that, life is so short, 10 decades? and if you frown instead of smiling you lose a day of happiness. so, since life is so short, why dont you just smile and go throught the day? why frown? . so everyone smile even if you are in a hard time. if you hit rock bottom , then whats more worse than that? no more. so lets all SMILE =)

Alrights, i still have this feeling that , i really really wanna go fly off to another counrty for my internship. not about my friends now. its just that, i wanna get more exprience and bring more food to my love ones around me to enjoy.

anw today was very tiring? i Piggy back a girl to parkway from roxy square. she was having gastric. poor thing but still its my first time piggy backing someone . very heavy uh, but she very light just that i weak la, so i must go train! orelse how go to army?!

Tomorrow i shall go gym and swim. hear le jiu tiring already, but i must have perserverance!

and i still have to attend a bloody cert test for my next year, and the min. passing grade is to get full marks. should i attend it next week or next next week?? i hope i can get it right at the first try. =)

Alrights. i think thats all! Take care =)

2011-03-05T17:48:00.002+08:00

Currently, i am worried about that girl! call Leow Yanjuan! MISS LEOW! not sure if i spelt it correctly or not. NVM! Take care Kay miss leow!

Saturday~~~ so boring ! i wanna go out but i dont wanna spend money, i can do it but my body dont allow me to D= . sunday come come! monday come even faster, i think i can go out by monday already. YAY!

alrights. i have finished my EXAMS! means i have finished my year one which means one year over already. so fast. i am now looking forward to my second year which means. intereaction with foods~ woot ! foods! i am so gonna learn alot and cook good food for my friends! =)

this holidays will be hectic soon. hope i make good use of my resting time. and big bang came out with new album! woot. 4 new songs all so nice, so i sharing two songs with you people now=) they also came out with parody call secret big bang, which can be easily found on youtube. go watch ;D

ok i guess thats all! too tired to continue on.

2011-02-20T01:50:00.002+08:00

My feelings now is like, a pit hole, nothing that goes in comes out, no expression and not very keen and anything right now. how do i go by this week, two word, left out. did i do something wrong to deserve this? ya. i deserve it. so what now? wanna fail me for exam ? comeon. why does all this happens to me?

i am glad that next sem i would be cooking and after that , i will be serving but most importantly, i wanna perform well for both of this as, for my third year, i wanna go overseas for my internship. i wanna fly so faraway from here as soon as possible, this place is so ... i woulr rather travel around the world searching for recipes and creating my own recipes instead of staying here getting treatments that are so different from what others get.

What are friends for, for some people, they may say, friends are there for you to lean on, talk to and be there for you. for my, friends are just there for show, no one cares , no one ask, no one listens. When your life ends, you will be thinking , for all this year, people who stood by me no matter what are just my family.

Friends ---- when i am in need of them, no one was there only my family can see whats wrong with me. When i am sick, my family would ask how i am, my friennds just sit there quietly enjoying their life. do you know what i am think now? guess not.

why the heck do i even have friends in the first place? why? can i skip that step? and just move on my life quietly? i think i am going to be justin lau number two. or maybe i will be harsher, i will just ignore my friends. good chioce. back to the unsociable form of my . cope my self with books and games. not talking to anyone.

Life, for me is so stupid, cant it be more smooth sailing, i dont expect much, i just want a normal life living normally without any stupid problems. i hate deciding and i hate it when things dont go that way it is suppose to be. i hate it! FUCK IT! FUCK MY LIFE.

time between us, shall just be buried like that. buried with a tombstone with no name and right in my brain.

I feel like giving up. why cant my life be that simple, i didnt expect much right. i just wan to have a stable life, leading stably not in some shit things that are happening right now. left out like nobody's business, looked down like some dirt on the ground, being used for some personal reason and being kicked around. i hate it. cant i meet someone normal? i just want a normal life. please god, just give me that.

thats all. now i really wanna fly off to other country for my internship leaving this place like a nobody and coming back being someone else.

2011-02-07T22:21:00.002+08:00

7th of feburary. my birthday just ended on the 5th. everything just happen so fast . oh well 18 years old already! time to be more mature than just slacking there.

I shall start with how i spend my birthday ! =)

I woke up at around 10 ? not sure of the time cause holiday seems to pass so fast =( . i went out to eat with my family at 12 and yes i am lae as i was suppose to meet kitson at 12.30 which i eventually cant make it . SORRY! i reach YJ house at around 1 plus ? kinda cool to walk alone HAHA! kidding! oh well i went in the say GONG HEI FAI CAI! but her parents wasnt in =( so they sat down and played lots of games while i sit there and watch my initial D! HMPH! its a cool show! i can watch it 500 imes without getting bored! . after that we payed cards and then there came madeline and yuling. with their donuts as cake for my birthday =.= but still thank you! at least got the heart .

me kitson and darren stayed till 4 and we head off to Qixiang's hse ! OMG! so exciting sia his fish! so big! and so ... sick =.= but it was the last survivor among the three! haha! so we stayed there playing cards and watching TV till darren came at around 9? and we head off to go town. and that moment came. so awkward. i know it was a boring night. sorry guys. but i saw something and i didnt have that mood. sometimes its just that great to be blind and deaf. obilvion to everything that is happening around . but still we got to cherish our hearing and sight! .

So we head on to a bridge? singapore river! YAY! we drank and all. and i dont know what happen after that alr. but one thing i know is that they are such great people to bring me home. When i reach home, i opened the door and saw my mother sleeping on the sofa waiting for me. I never felt so unfillial before. such a Bu Xiao de son.

ok we can end here!

Lastly, I hope no one gets bored of me when they go out with me. I sometimes just see and hear things that are so . FISH! I need someone to talk to me now! that song by Derrick hoh is what i am feeling now. i feel so miserable. anyone understands ? no one sees this. lets just forget it and go and sleep . i am not gonna talk much this few days. thank you.

2011-01-20T23:36:00.004+08:00

Today. i am going to tell a story. =)

Once upon a time, there is this guy call Timmy. the day he was born, the parents were delighted and also had high hopes for the son, timmy. so the mother althought need to work, took care of her son for about 2 years and then send him to his grandma hse to live in. so, from there, timmy went to kindergarden and was still very carefree and innocent. everything went well and eventually he went on to a primary school located at bedok area. During his first three years ,everything was moving on smoothly, but during the third year his grades starts to drop till when he was primary 6, his uncle even critised him and look down on him but oh well, timmy survived and went on to a secondary school located near tenaga.

During his first year, timmy felt afraid but at the same time relieved that he has his primary school friends in the same class as him. so everything went on with everyone bonding here and there and of course some quarrels which leads to a bad friendships. so going on to secondary two, timmy became interested in his CCA and started to excel in his CCA with his CCA mates. Bonds were tight and they went on to win many trophies for 3 consercutive years.

During timmy's second year, he got into some relationship , but due to his shyness and scare of failure, his relationship ended, while not forgetting everything . during the end of year two of his secondary school days, timmy saw tears , and joy in the class as the class was about to split.

So going on to his third year, timmy went into the class with a sense of isolation, but this isolation did not last long, he was soon being rounded up into the group of friends whom he call friends for the second time. The class bonded and the bond was very very strong. and after their time of mugging together as a class, their class succesfully made it to sec 4

During secondary 4, timmy and his class once agian mug the whole year round for the up coming o levels, giving each other supports through letters, msges and any sort of communication. No one was left out of this cycle. At last, O level was over and the class held a chalet to celebrate. After that, they still planned many outings together . Bond was still strong as they are still a one big family.

As the result came out, most of the his class mates got good results and so does he. in the end , he went on to TP and went into his favourite course. Now timmy is having his course now, not happy and felt left out, but still the bond of his secondary school life was the one that kept him going. so his new life begins now and will he make it and finish this race of his?

ok! i am done with my story! so touching! i like! =)

ok! i think its time for me to sleep alr! goodnights people!

Anw! anything that is said here and is similiar to someone is by coincidence and not a purpose! and i am a lazy boy , so i did skip some part of timmy's life. sorry ! anw enjoy this rubbish!

2011-01-19T23:02:00.004+08:00

Phenylethylamine

A type of neurotransmitter or some would say, love molecule! a type of acid in the brain! omg! cool right! i know! anw, i saw this because i was watching this show call tan qing shou an(The mysteries of love). but too bad, it ended today. today was the last episode. but oh well , i didnt even miss any single episode!

ok! let me give you a brief intro about this show, its about a professor and a policewoman love story and also plus a police inspector and a journalist love story, so this professor who is ling feng, calculate love in formula and as a type of acid, and well there goes his relationship. and for that police inspector, his GF left him because of him thinking that marrying his GF was being forced into it rather than he is willing to. but still all well ends well =) go watch it! its definitely worth your time!.

Love- what is it actually?? can eat or not? can any formula calculate it? well i guess not. if yes, then ur relationship is in deep shit!

Actually its not that easy to define love, if you truly love someone then you will give out all your best for that person, not giving up. i think this is why many relationship fails. brings me back to those memories agian . ha! ok! no emo-ing!

Alrights back to reality! Kinda happy and kinda sad! but oh well . HAPPY WINS! the happy thing is that , I AM IN SL! i am so gonna command those freshies! totally own them! and and i am going to have a busy holiday than a boring one! YAY!

Sad thing is that My CDS project is in a mess! =( ok actually i got more sad things but still! i dont care! happy wins! thats life accept it sad thing!

OK! nvm! i will try my best to clear the sad things, but some things are not that easy to clear , well it take time =) slowly will do! .

ok i think thats all people! goodnights! =D

An Insignificant being..

2011-01-13T23:44:00.003+08:00

Ok! i am suppose to be high and all those cause its my resolution for the year. but sometimes. things just hit you so hard. but oh well stand up, knock them down and walk on =) I guess i just need someone to talk to and i alr did that. thank god.

I am not gonna start the emo talk but i got this word Insignificant stuck in my head. kinda , sort of, nvm! . ok!

Today is sooo cold! and i am starting to wonder if i am getting sick or not. cause my body temperature seems to be a abit werid. i feel cold when it is quite sunny. and and Business school's LT rooms air-con are finally ON! OMG RIGHT! although they are on normally but this time, the LT is damn COLD! yes COLD! we are not dreaming! Woot!

Well, Feburary is going to come and guess what! so is my birthday~ . yay! ok. i am not sure what i want for my birthday, but for sure i know i want a camera! DSLR?! or a Poloriod? ok i dont know i get the spelling right or not. but still i wan this ok?! no one knows. =.= ok! nvm! let fate decide.

Well , exams is like a month away and i am still at there happily playing, and playing and playing. ok. i so dont wanna fail! i wanna go into my FOOD CULI PRATICAL! ok! time to focus, and get good results for my parents to feel proud of my.

Thinking of parents, i really hope that their busniess picks up. i can still remember the time where my uncle always looks down on me and says i wont even get through PSLE, but well i did. next he SUAN(look down on me?) me, say i wont be able to go to Poly not even an ITE would want me, but i did make it to poly and make it into my favourite course, well for that , i prove someone who has been thinking he is right for a long time wrong. Next i am going to prove to him i can get into uni , come out and help my father. I will expand his business.

Alrights. i guess after such a long journey of 18 years, its time i slow down for awhile, get recharged and get out there and be the best.

Time to go off after blah-ing so much!

SAY BYE BYE !

2011-01-08T18:09:00.004+08:00

Alrights ! lets get into the line and BLAST OFF!

Ok ! starting week of school was kinda... HECTIC! so much project finished and when i think it was ending, i was so wrong! it just keeps coming! But i wont be beaten! HPMH! push on ! PUSH ON! OK! there is a Synergy leader interview coming up this wednesday! i am so gonna JOIN IT! teach those freshies some thing or two! lets play some games and GET DIRTY!!!!!!

Anw i go to school on monday with two regret. 1) i didnt know I-Guide was for people to guide students around the school! that sucks! NVM Next year! lets get high and shout it out loud! .2) I didnt know i had to hand up my project and i didnt even do it , now i need to mug for that stupid project alr! =( My marks now fly like free alr la! .

OK! gotta get ready for the Synergy Leader interview. I wanna get in so bad!

I guess i like office wear so much , i wore it for the whole day and my shoe was so.... that i hurt my foot =( not good! gotta season that stupid shoe of mine before i go into service part of my course!

i think thats enough about School already! time for some Games!

should i buy Soccer game or an expansion game???? UNABLE TO DECIDE! let fate decide if my money has enough i will get two!

OKOKOKOKOKOOKOOKOKOKOKOKOKOKOOKOKOKOKOK!

Lets go study for now! GPA 3! here i come? HAHA!

333333333333333333. ok! goodbye people!

there is always a sparkle of rainbow in a dull day! lets just move on! =)

GOOD LUCK PEOPLES!

2011-01-01T04:06:00.009+08:00

2010

I dont get much laughters this year. comparing to 2009, 2009 was better.Time Flies i guess. At 12midnight, i seem to be missing something, a someone. How i wish ... how i really wish you were beside me at that time. I guess it wont happen. ha.... just my thinking agian. Kinda unrealistic.

I wont walk that path agian. nv agian.

alright, for the first time, i went to like a small party. it was fun, at least it let me see if i am able to go clubbing or not. but i guess, i am much or less ok ok with it bah. Its was fun, i jumped and dance? but the whole thing did not pull my mood up, instead, the part where darren and qixiang sort of like got "molested" by a transversial? and old somemore with alot of winkles and make up. Imgaine that. It makes me wanna laugh when i react at how they react to the touching. I guess this was the best.

2011

I dont wish much, but i just wan everyone around me to feel Blessed, healthy and most importantly feel happy .. thats all ! have a happy new year!

This is still the Picture i like most!

I'M Going Crazy

2010-11-30T00:32:00.002+08:00

This is the one day where i would feel piss off and being felt like a target that is easy to shoot, scold, beat or watever shit it is. Is it always me or is it that i am asking for it? I sometimes dont understand why has it gonna be like this. Is it cause my name is zijie thats why? or is it, i am an easy target?

Mind you but i am just trying to do something that i hope it would work. I guess this means, i am just a nobody . not even a single percent , a fraction , a dot or a microscope. I am just so tired of trying to impress and be close. Just so damn tired. A rest would be best now. i should do wat i should do. be selfish like i suppose to be, be quiet as i am suppose to do, be lousy as i am suppose to and be as navie as i am suppose to do.

Suddenly children world seems to be dull for a moment.

Its amazing how people views other people different in front of different people. you may be talking nicely to that person whie next moment, you are the best friend with that person.

Why bother trying so hard to suck up , imitate or try your very best to mix into the group when you realise, you arent up to that standard. like always.

Stop pretending you are cool and is like one of them . Because you just sucks to the very fucking max.

2010-11-13T00:52:00.002+08:00

Recently , life has been a drag. something that is stopping me, slowing me down and blocking me. there are just times that i really feel like giving up . why has everything bad gotta do with me and every good has not gotta do with me? am i really so irritating so annoying so, fucking dickhead that everything i do seems to be something that is bad? i mean no harm, i just wanna have some happy life. i am not into anything, money comes and goes, friends. . . . are just some .. i dont know wat.

i am just ... freaking tired of being treated like a trash or punching bag where someone could just vent all their angers on me. i am innocent . i didnt do anything , so why must you keep blaming me?

alrights, lets forget it.

Well today was quite fun? did random stuffs say random things and my mind doesnt seems to be in the right place. i cant seem to focus on something. maybe i just need some sleep i guess. we had the IG Interview, alright quite cool with that but dont think i would be able to pass , i just hope i can pass it. i really really wanna be an IG. i wanna disturb next year's freshmen! i am prepared! for everything! .

Anw megamind was quite nice? haha ok! la not say very nice, but i nearly fell asleep in the cinema while my friend just keeps laughing? she really likes kids alot, that when watching cartoon she also will laugh =.= damn werid girl. and one more is like sleeping in the cinema for 30 mins which is like 35% of the entire movie?

Alrights time to sign off! goodbye world! time for lala land!

2010-10-23T02:05:00.003+08:00

Damn today. not good not good. i am just tired of nonsense, arrogance, fighting, Kp-ing and blaming others. stop blaming people. when all has been done. Just freaking accept it, face it and solve it together. instead of just blaming people. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH

Alrights today is 23th of oct which means that in about a few more hours, i will being going to expo to attend the Kpop night concert. Oh man, its gonna be packed. but luckily we are getting sitted. yeah.

i found out that my timetable was very cool. little things and i am also in trouble when i found out that i dont have any CDS. damn. i need to go school early on monday just to talk to my CP about this things. why cant they just put me in some CDS when they say its complusory. its a freaking waste of my time.

i guess i am starting to miss school but the timetable really turns me off. darn it.

Ok i guess its time for me to sleep alr.

2010-10-18T23:47:00.003+08:00

I am damn tired today. kinda got woken up thrice today. as always . the only time i get to sleep peacefully is when i am at my own home. my own home is very peaceful and quiet. when i wake up i see sea! and coney island. its damn cool. the morning mist is really really nice. when its raining it is very cooling.

This few days, things around me seems to changed dractiscally. i seem to be losing things, quite, no very fast. I am tired of nonsense, comparing, complaining, listening, Being called upon like some slave and tired of people wanting to challenge me. i dont like this. stop comparing me or challenging me. If you think you are the best, then alright you are the best. tell me for wat? i dont wanna know such shits. and stuffs. I am tired of crapping with you all. really really tired. i wanna cut off all connections with the world.

I guess i really needs some time out. I need some where i can be alone, some where where there is no complaining .

so this is how the real world is like.

I know why i always feels left out. thats because, everyone has a friend whom they can talk to . but my friends are always busy, my parents are always busy. my friends are always others friends. i seem so left out. i am always left out of conversations. Maybe its just that you all are so high up but i am so low down there. I guess i would not be able to reach you all de standards.

so this is how aquarius people is like, low self-esteem. When i am not cut out to be like that, i try my very best to be at there. althought i dont very much like F&B line. i do my best to learn so as to help my father in future. I dont wanna see my mother or father at their old age, having to raise me this kind of a useless son. My father also dont have a very strong heart, so i really really wanna grow up real fast to help him manage his business help him think help him in everyways i can. As for my mother, i really wanna help her . i wan her to have her rest after all this years. i wan her to go around the world with my father to look around. my mother doesnt even step out of the house to go shopping because of me and my sisters. She is afraid. so i must really grow up and learn .

Actually my real dream is to become a pilot. i wanna travel around the world looking at diff things. but that has to be shelved =) . so i hope i will be able to in the future.

Alrights. thats all i guess. see you .

2010-10-18T00:19:00.003+08:00

163 posts. hmmm cool. man, rotting at home and really really wanna go school soon. i wan school and i cant believe that i wan school =.- i wanna eat at mensa or design school agian. i miss the food! i miss my friends i miss everything! damn. haha ok!

anw today's soccer was rather awkwarded, my leg was in pain but i just continue. after all this i guess tonight i going to have cramps till i dont know how to cope.

Oh man, i am missing something, someone, somehow.

Kinda feel unappreciated this few days, but well thats life. i guess. ha. hmmm i just cant figure out what are you thinking, cant ur mind be more simple? just let me guess it correctly for once.

getting touchy lately. i cant seem to find out the reason, i get angry over small matters, retarded things and of course retarded people. When you lose something, you gain one thing, i guess for me is , you lose something, you lose more. cant seem to have any appreciations from people nowadays, comeon singaporeans, show some appreaciations.

This feeling of friends who were once close to you leaves you alone after they find no benefits but friends are not for benefits, they are there to help you grow, and learn from mistakes . so in life you have lots of funny , werid people who are your friends, they help you learn from mistakes.

Kinda weird to be my friend because, i am weird. i dont like challenges, maybe its because i am scare of losing . or most probably i find challenges boring.

ok. enough crapping i guess. thats all.

( Sometime, its just good to be selfish for awhile. )

2010-10-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

What if. so many many what ifs!!! what if i tell you i miss you? what if i tell you i like you? what if! its oly what if, because, i wont be saying it out to you anyway=)

Holiday is really draining me of my energy and life. suddenly i feel so weak and bored and tired of everything. should start to go out and have fun already. but there is no one to pei me =( . i am damn sian at home now. jio me OUT! .

Gotta work on my cheesecake's appearance, the taste still abit off . haha.

Suddenly i really like swimming alot, swimming and holding ur breath under water opening ur eyes looking forward seeing only blurry visions. It just looks like life, no one knows what is ahead, it is all blurred and could only be seen when it is very near to you. so cool. being under water also let me rethink about all those things that has been happening around me , kinda sad, kinda happy , kinda weird haha.

I dont know why i keep saying wrong things this few days , gotta control my mouth abit. haha! I miss my MEI MEI, YANJUAN! damn sad i not able to attend both of those outings. Promises cant be broken i guess .

Alrights i guess thats all for today =) lets go ECP TOMORROW!

Thoughts: currently still missing you ! damn! haha! XD .TCARE!

2010-10-08T22:57:00.003+08:00

I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY

This few words keep flashing before me and said by me this week. i dont know how often i have used this word already.

Great. now i guess i am in that ..... thing le. SIAN SIA! why ! why must you appear, why must we be so close. WHYYYYYYYYYY. i guess its FORBIDDEN.

ok. nvm . hiax.

things arent going my way , instead its like going agianst me. When i wan this, this dont come out instead that comes out. When you are being critised to a point until you really cant take it, you burst out. something like that keep happening in my house.

OK enough about my life. Tmr going to get my passport, cool but i need to wake up early . WTF~~~ wtf man! . GG la. what is this. somemore i think i wont be able to go eat with 4-CIANS=( damn sad. SUNDAY I AM DAMN FREE. but no one ask me out and i dont think anyone is FREE=(. Cheesecake~~~ i just made some and guess wat the appearance =fail but taste=pass. thats wat junyong said to me today.

I guess i also sprained my ankle, because i went to swim. i dont even know when that happen la. dam patethic sia.

i guess thats all.

i guess i miss you alot, even thought i am not entitled, not suppose and not allowed to even think or miss you. this sucks. When i am just sitting here missing you all day, you are just right there thinking about someone. Cool phrase.

2010-09-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

This current moment. i feel that, i totally have no friends around me. just like someone being called upon, being pushed around, being used, being blamed. no one will know i even existed in their friends profile. Damn sick and tired. worthless toy, human, person.

Even people who are often critised or whatever it is has friends around them who talk to them, help them and provide them with supports. i just dont understand , maybe , this is how i am suppose to be treated.

my social circle tends to be within kitson, roy and kendrick. thats all . oh my. screw it man. i just wanna have more people to talk to . why no one replies? why people wanna kick me out of the group ? why has it always to be me? why why why?

i try to be friendly and approachable. But still, there is no response. i dont need any attention. i just need people to talk to me. but it seems like, only five people are willing to talk to me. the rest , are just . i dont know what to say. my words also dont carry any weights.

I dont have the courage to tell you things i truly wanna tell. i just likes to bottle up things. yeah watever.

after this, i found out , family are still the ones there surpporting and giving me advice and all those. thats why my father always tells me, family comes first than friends but i dont know why i just put friends first and friends, just put me last. so now , its just me and my computer for now. after that , its me and my assignments.

I cant wait to numb myself in books and knowlegdes. Woot. sucks.

Maybe this all ... is just a feeling only. i hope so .

2010-09-19T02:00:00.002+08:00

Finally, ends finished, troubles gone! . now left with personal problems. hmmm so how am i gonna overcome it? should i tell you that, i really really do wanna be . . . . more than just that. i guesss its just up to fate now. alrights.

Hey to all those JC ppl out there , goodluck and jiayous! =).

dead blog i guess. better bah. i guess this isolation is cool =) . i dont even know what i am trying to say. guess , i am gonna talk rubbish agian. alrights. for this week , i had funs and of course there are some unpleasant things that came up. lets not talk about it. i am feeling bored this few days because of looking at my com for like 2/3 of my waking hours. OH my. eyes gotta get rotten soon =.-

Friends, hmmm . i dont know why, i dont feel like having friends suddenly, it sucks when you are down and one by one they come and pull you even further down.

Recently watching a show on channel 855 . nice show , that talks about our signs , as in aquarious ,aries, virgo and etc. damn cool.

alrights. i guess i dont feel like talking anymore, shall post next time.

My Memories....

2010-08-12T00:14:00.008+08:00

2010-08-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

Memories...

Having Major mixed feelings now. i dont know why, or maybe i know why. i just feel left out, if ill-treated, feel being used, feel like a public enemy.

Is it me? or is it just some people has nothing better to do and just sit there or watever there keep say me and all those things. maybe its meant to be like this, sometimes i really feel like closing my ears and shut the world out, shut it completely out. fuck the world. its not a better place for me. people gets all the crazy stuffs and i just sit here being .... forget it.

Sometimes i really do feel weird that i cant actually communicate with you guys. cant talk properly to you guys, i seriously am getting tired of all this kpkb and rubbish. i gonna talk lesser from now on. damn irritating i am, damn kp i am. ahhhhhhhhh shut that out, i not gonna do that. i revert back to the old me. Quiet and emo.

ok FORGET ALL THOSE. gonna randomly post some pictures.

2010-07-30T00:18:00.006+08:00

This world.. is so dull now. I am very very tired now. But i still hang on to even answering you all craps and shiits . My duedate for Food Science is nearing and i am still stuck at the first part.

I cant really imagine myself sitting in one position doing my dreamweaver web page for six hours straight , no wonder my eyes are in pain right now.

Tomorrow still has to edit and tie up some loose ends of the projects. Some times i really do not know what you are thinking in your mind . you gotta let people know you and show that you can do well as others, dont hide your true self from us, your group members. We can help you, just that you will have to let us in .

I am currently having problems with this blogger, i wrote something and it does not come out. STUPID! .

Alright nvm. as i said . i really gonna Cook some steaks or maybe CHEESECAKE this sunday.

Sometimes. i seriously just feel being stretched too tight and too much pressure is put on me. i really seriously need a break. Sometimes, when i want you to text me , you dont . my phone suddenly goes into a slience mode, being quiet like me . I wan a break for 1 month. and really need people to understand that i am not your middlemen, toy, venting anger machine or watever shit you wan me be. i am just me , Wong Zi Jie. some normal kid down the street that is not owned by anyone.

Alrights . forget about that. Anw today was quite tiring . Majorrrrr headache i think i go offline now before the headache gets worse. till then see you around .

"Dont Give Up"

2010-07-26T23:22:00.003+08:00

Formal!!!! although this picture was taken a long time ago. haha Hmmm. i am transforming into a freaking COMPUTER GEEK now.cause of my subject. =.= FML!

RAM, FLASH DRIVE, WINDOWS 7, TROJAN, ROOTKIT. WTF?!. hiax. brain dying soon.

Oh yup, am super high today, although i got a flu and its really irritating la! F man! .

Tomorrow another test and this time, its 25%. cannot give up. then saturday another test and next monday i have to hand up two major projects. which i am in doubt of whether i can finish it mah. wat the heck.=.= HECTIC!

Randomly adding people in FB. although i sort of say hi to them like once . today was quite fun. and of course hilarious! but i didnt go training today but instead i went home to study. OH man pangseh them agian! damn bad.

Chalet coming! ready! ready ready! haha. am there am here and am ready!.

Sometimes, you just have to fight through your life and get wat you wan but still sometimes, its just right for you to just let go and see from a distance, know what you are suppose to do at that specific moment. so ya. GOODLUCK EVERYONE! gonna cook something this week as needed for my major projects. BEEF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok i guess thats all! TC everyone! =)

2010-07-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

2010-07-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

Went to watch this movie yesterday. It was nice and i enjoy it really much . and i found one song. OMG! damn nice . Secrets from ONE republic. Serious. although i should be studying now instead of blogging, but still i just wanna blog this out. i got a feeling i will being going into a no mood mode again. dont know why but just going into it.

Recently, my left ear has this buzzing song and suddenly cant hear things sometime . dont know why. I dreamt of you again. ha ha ha joker. i hope this doesnt continue, because i really wanna carry on and forget.

Sometimes, its really good to be alone and walking in the rain . forget everything , forget all the critisim( dont know how to spell) , troubles and all those pain. fuck. haha.

Its not that simple. Some people wants a normal life while i want an supernormal life. haha kidding. alrights. this coming thursday is aaron's birthday so i gonna celebrate with him , roy kitson and kendrick.

Gonna save money for Chalet . arnd $200 should be enough bah. yup. ok.

haha all my random posts. i figure out there there is only two three ppl looking at my blog , which is ... cool=) cause, lesser people lesser troubles.

alrights. so long .gotta sleep now. TC everyone.

2010-07-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

Alrights.. i shouldnt be posting right now as i am mugging for my test tmr . but still i just have the feeling of posting. yep. i feeling quite low now. and this is the only place i can say it out. Without people " pouring cold water " on me. yeah. emo kid but still i acted strong infront of you guys. sometimes, i dont know the reason for living , but you guys out there gave me one. thanks

But still sometimes when you all are not around me or in my life, i tends to anti out, think negatively. too much emoist le. haha.

I do wonder, why dont i get the same treatment as other people? why i always tend to get left out of the social circle. i know, cause i did not try to go into the social circle. Sometimes i am really tired of it. sometimes.

I dont know why, because its just you, i cant stand or maybe its just me, watever the reason is , studies most impt now. its great to see you happy, smiling, laughing even though deep down me, i am hurting . how cool.... alright this hectic week for me is gonna end soon le. so a big exam is coming to me le. great. alrights i guess thats all i gonna say.

Goodbye all!. TC

"like can have alot of people, but love ..... can only be one in this whole world" so cherish...

2010-07-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

Now going through the low part of my life. so low. anw so long didnt post le, i just finish my rugby training and, ..... i got present back, ONE BIG bruise to my face.=.= nvm . I am in pain right now, dont know why it hurt so much.

Sometimes, i dont know why i am like this, maybe cause its just me, i am like that. i said my mother boliao and she angry at me =.= , now i feel so lost=.= zzz nvm just let her cool down. and i already said sorry le=(.

suddenly i already went through like 17 years of my life le, it is so fast, thinking of my secondary school. how much fun we have had, sadness, happines, tears, surprises and stupidity. i realise, that , secondary school was the best chapter of my life. so are you in my life=)

I spent way too much money le. i guess i should be a poor man from now on, which is difficult. Oh ! and i will be cooking soon =) damn excited! and so looking forward to it=).

alrights! i think thats all for today! TC guys and girls=) jiayous!

2010-07-08T23:15:00.002+08:00

If you dont see me post things on my blog means that i am happy, but if i really do post on my blog, it means somethings has gone wrong for my day so i want to shout it out in my blog.

Wasnt having the best of days today. I dont know why i am always being the centre of arguments or maybe sometimes a punching back. Maybe thats just me, i really cant do anything, feel so weak, scold back seems like bad idea. i dont know, sometimes , its just best to firgive and forget, maybe thats why i am wat i am now, someone so xiaoqi. Why? cause all he feelings are bottled up.

Its just not right , just not fair, people of different calibre gets different treatment, while for me , i am treated like shit. it just takes one word , one sentence and it spoils that perfect image you have, but is this really wat i am suppose to endure? FML.

I like being alone but i hate the feeling of loneliness, no one understands me well, not even myself, damn pathetic. When i am happy , i am alrights if you keep pour" cold water" on me or keep say me, trying to be funny and scold me for no reasons, nevermind, i take it , hold it back. But if i am really down and you tried to scold me , you know i will tell you to fuck off. so pls , do me a favour, treat me as human being, not some fuckers who you can use for scolding. I am tired already. i know people dont like me, i dont live to serve them but still if you still hate me, think about yourself first, cause maybe you are the one who started the whole thing first.

So much shortcomings, so much unevens and so much fuck up life, feel like giving up.... does this happens to anyone? nah. maybe to me ya. Maybe i should just keep my mouth shut and dont talk .

Sometimes giving in too much may back fire, so stand up, beat those things down and hold that line, although no one supports you, try your best to fight.

ok now its damn emo ... fuck it. alright moving on now after i vent all my anger here. alrights! see ya!

2010-06-29T22:52:00.005+08:00

haha i dont know why i on my blogger for today . nothing to blog anw .

nvm i just crap here! since someone say about me ! haha =) thanks anw , you are the best ! serious . yesterday i mass sent those messages to all JC students, and i am sorry if i left you out, if i did i am real sorry , and you can try tell me that i miss you out=)

i didnt listen to emo songs today and is super high today . till like i say hi to almost everyone=)=) today's lecture lucky didnt not make me sleep sia . orelse i die le =.= cause it was Organisational Behaviour , and is damn difficult for me to catch up.

woke up today with my left hand being sore and in pain ar . damn pain la . but still i was nearly but not late for my BCS test . HENG sia ! i did the test expecting everyone to be better than me cause i did not study and is always among the lousiest in my class, but to my surprise , i got 13.5/15 wow! shocking haha!

alrights.. thats all. sometimes i just kinda miss you but .. i was just too late , i rather we meet first and i may get a better chance to know you , but still this is fate . i will still always be there for you even in your highs and in your lows . when you need me just say out and i will be there righ away=)

i wont give up on you and eerything. i will preserve till the end, but when i run low of energy could you just slow down ... haha for yanjuan she will =).

Reflection:"Keep Looking Forward, Dont turn back even if i fell down, cause i will always be right behind you, surpporting you. " I promise !! =)

2010-06-28T23:26:00.004+08:00

And for my last part! thanks mei! for always! ok most of the time being there for me ! =) goodluck for your exam! and JASPER! too=) TC!

2010-06-28T23:17:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow going to have excel test and i today still go play rugby !!! now my both arms are in pain ar . stupid stupid stupid!!!! haha omg its damn difficult to even type out in blog la . my arms are like so cui!! .sian TTM! hmmm .. alrights! this week hope that there wont be troubles =) one week can le . i already got so many troubles for the past 1 month ... maybe more.. haha but its alright . use to it le . i dont know why i get the feeling of being used =.=

this few weeks has been busy sorting out things . finally . i have given up . i know i wont stand a chance . yeah! victory! kinda surprise when yanjuan msg me and oh shit i forget to msg her tell her goodluck! piang wat a brother i am to her . sometimes people dont realise that everyone dont like him but still carry on doing suffs we dont like .

Anw i skip lecture ! felt bad but still who cares! haha! =) gotta catch up soon ! today damn epic for me ar . some stupid people with no brains security guard keep KP me sia ! wtf! i dont smoke la idoit ! i got asthma how smoke?! wtf sia . damn brainless la ! with people smoking does not mean i smoke k! fucker! fuck off safra! .

alrights i think thats all for today! gotta sleep early and wake up early tomorrow! =)

Reflects: " you are my pillar of strength , so dont fall even if i fall first, Promise me"

2010-06-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

Nowadays rainbow looks black to me .i dont know why . somethings just dont go my way . People mistaken me , people take me out as their vending anger person, not happy just scold me , like i no feelings like that. not trying to act pitiful and need your concern . i just need people to understand and appreciate wat i have done for them and not wat i have not done for them. Maybe a few more years later , i cannot tahan go jump building . haha kidding .

Seeing other people leading such lifes and not appreciating their lifes . they are just plain idiots . i wish i would have their lifes . lifes of people acknowledging you in their lifes and not like mine , unappreciated , and things not going my way . so it is me after all?

hiax~ so long nv blog le and thats wat i say . haha damn emo la.

Yesterday did not have a pleasant day working at Hereen's Waraku. the ast.manager keep kp me and roy . even worse than linda sia . then its like i only one attending the customer then say i slow . wtf you serve la . dont wan help there talk cock . nvm . adults nv understands me . even my home also has one pyshcopath . guy somemore

then have monopause .or watever it is spelled . keep venting anger on me . guy somemore . keep having mood swings . i am in this house to for your sake fucker. i am here because my mother told me to be here . if can i would rather stay at my own HOME . If i really cant tahan anymore . i will punch you and walk out of the door nv to go back agian . the most i sleep in playground la .

stop! stop! . i dont know wats wrong with me too . i really damn restless la . cant even talk . damn lazy to talk . damn tired to bother about everything . suddenly i feel like having accident . forget everything about you , me , my uncle . i only want to rmb my father mother sister and my two grandma-s . the rest i can dont rmb . i only want to rmb good things , things that are happy , like 4C and 2B and one more person . the rest are shit .

feeling quite useless now . i dont know why but i just feel it . maybe its time i take a rest from my life , recharge first then come back agian

2010-06-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

Sudden urge to go to the beach and just forget everything . I wanna be back myself agian , i want to , i really really want to . i wanna walk alone at the beach . only me . myself . i wanna think about myself for now .

When can i be myself agian?? one more week k? one more week.

Blog is the only place where i can talk as i like , when i like and how i feel . lucky no one sees this , ok a little people see this.

where is this cheerful zijie gone to ?now always put fake smiles across like that . so easy , deep down it hurts alot . i am not trying to blend in , i am tired of blending in . memories is a nice word , but there are good and bad . i have more of the bad ones .

Does everything bad happens to me . why? i dont blame others , i blame my fate . haha so sad . thats why i need fake smiles . so fake that they seem to be real .

STOP! ok . finish le .

now my projects seems to be endless sia =.= farktard . gonna do a few tomorrow and on saturday and sunday . till then i will be standing there waiting . and waiting . .

alrights . done crapping le . goodnight

2010-06-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

Suddenly i feel that the world is so big. but i am cramped in my own space. Stupid emo songs stole away my happy face!!

Today was very fun and quite "exciting" ar . haha! ok la ! i am alrights. tmr going to TAMPINES to watch movie.

Believe it or not i went to swensen's ice-cream buffet for three times. YAY! and yes i scare of ice-cream now! sibei sian sia. and i didnt know got rugby trainig on monday! no one tell me till kewen told me when i saw him working sia . =.= FARK!

i want training . freaking sad that my laptop is spoiled=( totally!

Zijie! keep on going! you can de! Dont give up la! k? jiayous! .

this words keep flashing before my eyes . dont know why. just that .... haha nvm=)

today machiam walk around orchard with a crazy girl! . yes she call herself crazy ! not me la!. i very kind one! i call her go hougang chalet only! haha!.

alrights la . i know wat i suppose to be doing . goodbye to you.

going sleep soon! and nothing to say haha! good night Blog!

2010-06-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

Sunday .... yeah . havent lose track of time . feeling down , no mood and no appetite . 2 days le . affected badly by that incident . i dont know why i am affected though . am i ok ? mentally sound? shut up .

feel like disappear for a few days . should not have online today . feeling of bottling up those sadness is very hard . nvm i dont need you . i need time alone . things are going agianst me now .

alright. stop!

FRIDAY

wake up early brush teeth and went off to east coast . played soccer with some friends which cause my hips to be in pain and having injuries to my legs . BOTH! .after that went prawn-ing . (waste money agian) but still continued . went home and took a shower . after that something happened . cause me to feel down and out .

SATURDAY

went out to buy clothes . and yeah it sucks . having those stupid feelings .

SUNDAY

worst day of this month . discovered something so sudden and is a shock to me . now . dont know wat to do.

tomorrow will be working . dont know how i can face people with no smile . joke face ....

This sucks ....

2010-05-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

thursday already.... 4 more days to OB exam and 5 more days to microecon exam.
damn stress but i still blogging! OMG!.

alrights today at 1 me and kendrick went to play pool ( ya i am not surppose to go play) then my cousin and roy join in . after that went to sakura to eat with them plus kitson and yan xun . (on the way thinking of you agian) damnit . kendrick shown me some videos like how china people skin the racoon ALIVE fucking ppl with no compassion for animals . its an damn disgusted videos . and of course there are a few funny videos .

after that went to sakura to eat and talk cock there about last time's fun time at crossfire and Zion . i really miss those days , no projects and so much stress . how i hope we could be at secondary school.

after that i went home and didnt even see dao jasper as he is late .

sometimes life just dont go your way , so you will just have to try another door . after trying so many doors you will feel tired and wanna take a break but you cant , this is life . accept it . am not in the best of mood now . yesterday night was very fun . i had a great time talkin to you . yup you. althought we were like .....

taeyang's wedding dress is still the best song now . i like it very very much . i know ppl hate me now . ya ok i know you . serious . i cant stop you from hating me . alrights . maybe i should go and sleep instead of talking rubbish here .

hope to see you soon!

2010-05-24T22:15:00.008+08:00

alrights as you can see ! this is kendrick! showing off his "beautiful " hair.=)

OMG! Desert!! serious ! damn nice! esp the one on the most left! egg tart sia but damn sweet! seriously nice!!!

This is the main course ! salted prawn ! and YES! IT IS DAMN LITTLE!!but still damn nice.

guess wat is this! this is APPLE BEER! nice nice! taste like apple tea though but still nice!

MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE! MUSHROOM SOUP! CAMPBELL LOSE ! BIG TIME! HAHA! and yes it looks like shit but really it is damn nice!

next time i will be studying here at TCA! YAY!!!

Entrance to TCA! currently under renovations cause they plan to make it bigger!

OK! today was damn fun ! tasting cheese , drinking milk , eating ice-cream made by "us" ,eating goat's cheese and all sorts of damn OMG! stuffs ! . after that wen to TCA to have our lunch! damn nice ! serious! alrights and all those missings starts! after that went to take a test and WTF! study half of the notes get 15 if study full ! full marks! after that went to safra with CCM girls and MY BOSS ANGELINA! (she told me to caps it)hah! and at around 6 plus darren and kitson came !

OMG! POOLING GOD! (like real) and kitson is like =.= nice, i like his hair ! next time i need cut like that so in this one year ! must cherish my hair! PERCIOUS HAIR! DONT DIE =(

alrights i know today some special day! yes i know . but forget it . hope you can hear it in your heart. HE! not HER! .

ok! today was fun but next week is mid sem le ! damn fast . i blur diao liao sia! @$#%#$@.

Organisational behaviour on next monday and microecons for next tuesday then holiday!!! PLS PASS!! i wan go year 2 =( .

anw i also dont know wat to blog about . so see you guys soon! CHEERS!

2010-05-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

2010-05-23T22:01:00.002+08:00

Damn tired and not having fun in first year of poly =( but second year would be better ! i hope ! hmmm feeling down today . yesterday was damn high ! cause of one person! her! OMG! i think i going to break my promise of not steading in my poly life . but getting her to be my GF ..... impossible . anw i had fun yesterday ! it was totally awesome! espically when i am in the same group as HER ! OMG! .

anw i hurt my finger yesterday ! damn sad i cant use my thumb but i hope i can still play rugb tomorrow cause i really wanna trian myself . and shit i have been sticking to junyong too much =.= shall stop ! but no one is willing to go to gym with me . with so many projects , homeworks and tests . i really hope i can graduate ! then go CIA study! . damn tiring this few days . dream also can dream of "her" damn sad .

i really hope to make my blog alot ppl to come and see . but well i am ok with no one seeing but its FOC to watch my blog . i have my birthday wish . is for you to know that i exist! OMG! i going crazy soon ! . so long nv gaming le . and relax today relax full me . recharged le so now must charged out and fight ! .

so many theories in my mind now . hope that i could off load it somewhere and load it back agian . have been listening to emo songs today! so i damn emo today . darn it .

i kinda miss you agian now . feeling like a sicko ! trying to buff up myself . i really hope to be stronger than like a weakling now .

anw i hop tmr's eating sessions would be great fun and enjoyable !! .OMG! I LOVE CCM!
and i have been listening too much of the wedding dress le ! OMG! . dying soon ! .

Alrights i think its time to go sleep le ! GOOD NIGHTS EVERY BODY!=)

2010-05-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

2010-05-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

THURSDAY soon .... disappointed this morning.very very disappointed . i dont know what to say about you all . maybe i dont belong to your click your group . i was part of it , now . history. i didnt know anything until some kind soul come by and tell me . now i know , sorry i wont care . =)

sometimes it just takes one move to make me sad , unhappy or angry . ya i xiao qi . but think first , why i will angry ? why so easily . its because of all those things building up inside . so just shut up and mind your own business instead of saying people .thanks alot!

anyway i was lucky rafe called me to lend me his listening ear . nah ! i didnt forget u girl! i know i could talk to you when i am down but its not fan bian !sorry =) hope you will understand . lucky i didnt do stupid things and rave was really fast in calling me . i really very touch .

so today was quite okay except for the morning part where a kind soul told me something i really didnt wish to hear . but thanks anw .after that i went to find gerald lim . studied in the library for a while then we head down to mensa cause Lim was hungry . after that went to lecture hall 18 . OMG! damn boring . lectucer is mono-tone , boring , not exciting and suck people youth sia ! after that went to the library to stone there with my hungry stomach growling and no one is free to eat with me . damn sad . after that gerald lim came but no one went to trianing , so skip ! we went to eat instead and here comes MENSA again=) after that went home . on facebook and saw disgusting things right the moment i opened it . i wrote call me rave and he immediately called me . damn touched . really . this is what i call friends .

Hmmmm enough of all this stupid chatters le . tomorrow going to be a tough day . with Communication skills , going to culinary acadamey and doing projects within 3 hrs in school . OMG! packed! .and i am hoping to see you there =) although i know you wont be there . TC everyone !

2010-05-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

Its thursday already ? right?? hmmm. i thought that one week over le , problems would not start escalating. ha ha ha . PROVEN WRONG!.problems is still coming . subjects of things and all those things.

somthing is very wrong it is me . i damn tired nowadays give me a break . i wan a kit kat! damn tired . of school of everything but i dont wanna die BODOHS! . rugby was cool but very intense game . but i can see that guy called wayne wants to be a captain. softball pls can set up .

i have been thinking . "am i drifting away from my secondary school friends ? is our understanding of each other not deep enough? is that everyone with new friends always drifting away? dont anyone know their roots? their friends ? can anyone think properly ? " i am damn tired le . really . stop pushing me can ? just stop .

today am not in the best of mood . i dont know why even if i know i wont say why . sometimes its really good to be alone . projects projects and more projects . due dates coming in fast . cant remember many things . old le or too stress that i dont even know it myself . just got this empty feelings inside me .

today went to the library to do projects and OMG! we are not doing it , instead we are bonding =.= and yes i playing soccer today with my CCm friends . it was fun but there is a girl playing with us sia . damn scare of banging into or pushing her =.= quite fun and i sweat like nobody's business . Hmm.. i seem to have neglected ppl but ppl also did neglected me . dont know how many times have i been squashed in the middle with ppl scolding me even though i didnt do anything wrong . nah! i am not saying you only . there are alot . wonder when it will stop . i dont crave for attention , but i just wanna make friends . i wont forget old friends . but just dont irritate me . i cant take it . i will scold u and u know so stop it .

i really miss those days where we go sing K , talk cock , slack in mac or school , play a match in other schools , talk back to teacher , get caught by teachers , being talkative, jiao wei-ing and most of all disturbing ppl . does anyone remembers ? maybe one . or two the rest . dont even know that they have a friend who is always there for them . suddenly memories start to blank out that person .

does it happens to u then ? it does not to me . i dont wanna be remembered but i wan to be cherish . i am not important but i can always lend a helping hand . jiayous! .

anw i am surprised by the number of people who visits my blog . i thought it would be zero throughout . maybe ppl do remember .

u shut my mouth up for the whole day ....

2010-05-02T00:14:00.002+08:00

Phew! its saturday . Oops i meant sunday already . going to monday soon =( . really i wanna rest more .

Alrights this few days being in school some were great some were bad . but the good part happen more . tomorrow going for rugby training agian ~. with kewen antonio and junyong. chaostic . i hope that softball can be established in TP . i dont see the reason why not . if its cause of the trianing ground we can share . so ya , i really hope that softball could be set up .

this few days still coughing . =( damn irritating to be coughing and coughing . no chioce , eat medicine and sleep . avoid this avoid that .

My CCM friends keep asking me . "why u dont have girlfriend" why . i also dont know . just reply i ugly la ! . haha! not funny . but really i dont feel like having girlfriends now . look at girl still can . but no into relationships . maybe lost faith in relationship already. and i am NOT GAY ! . u say i GAy, i fuck u . i still like girls . first love is really important .

jay chou's new album is coming out soon le . song quite nice . standard emo songs one .

hmmm... lets talk about school bah .
my class of girls are totally werid but my class of boys are damn enthu . among them . i am the most enthu one =) . but they click real well with me except for three who are isolated . i cant say no one likes them but they are weird. Macham gay partners sia . group must together , eat also . go toilet also . like keep sticking togeher sia .=.= wtf.....
The other boys . all ok la . quite smart , quite hardworking just playful and some damn ticopei sia . =.= girls are ...OMG. silent killers sia . kill u without talking and most of them damn dao . took me damn long to break the bloody "ice" and they are not pretty . ya , i am not shuai too . i know . and i discover some of them are 8-9 pointers and got A's for english sia ,which this course strongly needs . i am dead . R.I.P .

alrights trying my best to keep up with the pace of the work and projects . after june all my projects due date sia . no time le have to chiong this monday . damn tired sia . but working more tired. My dad just came back from work at expo . saw his rashes . then i feel like wtf am i doing . i should study harder . stop holding back . my parents keep putting us at first piority but we . ....did not . have to study hard le . really no more playing . damn retard .

thats all . goodbye

2010-04-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! SICK SICK SICK !

persistent cough ! keep bugging me ! go find other people laaaaaaaaa! .

today was having a fun and crazy loads of time . like nv eat medicine like that crazy all the way!!!!!!! OMG! i toooooo social le! classmate say me weird sia! WTF! nvm EARN reputation!projets, homework, assignment ! OMG! HELP!

alrights ! althought today was crazy . when i sit on the bus going home . i suddenly about yesterday . my mum was nagging at me as usual but i just keep say um ah orh! to her. damn bad .then i think if next time my mother were to like *ahem ahem* u know . i would cry and call her to nag at me . but she is gone . so i must really cherish her and my father more . although they nags but they did this for my own good . guiding me cause they flt guilty of not being able to yo be by my side when i needed them the most through my entire educational age . they scare of alot of things . scare i skip class become gangster , scare i smoke and all those things that a extra concern parents would care . i didnt wanna let her down . and yes i did it . i dont smoke i amd not a gangster , skip class. NO! but today i broke it . i skip lecture because i had a stomachach but lucky i could catch up . although i miss lessons .

alright thats all i thinking now .

anw this few days seriously not feeling well and cant eat fast food , oily food and all those but . i still cant stop cause of roy and my CCM's friends =.= . and i dont kinda eat mac or KFC nowadays . cause i watch videos of how harmful they may be . and OMG! GROSS can discribe it all !

anw i am looking forward and hoping to see my beloved , 2B and 4C ians agian. meet up soon guys !cheers!

2010-04-24T00:37:00.003+08:00

i am still in pain from my sore throat =( =( damn sian ! wat can i do ? drink more water lor ....

anw today i saw someone whom i wan to see but that person makes me feel that see is a bitch . i dont know why ? sorry !

today was quite a boring day except for me wearing too formal to class le .=.= sian 1.5 ,1 over 2 and 5over 1o. somemore and worse still is i cant find my class in the morning ! WTF IS THIS! . overall everything was fine until 3 plus where i feel discomfort , tirdness and all those craps . and i discovered . i am still having FEVER, and it was nv enough , next come its friend flu and sorethroat.whose next?! hiax ...

i fell asleep for half an hour on the counch . but remebered i had to go out eat with some angry ppl. so at 4.30 head down to tam mall . and WOW! ROY ARRIVED BEFORE ME SIA! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE ! . so we head dwn to T1 meet yanxun and to eat although some ppl like ROY is still mumbling why dont wan go to seoul garden . haha! too bad, tell aaron . next kitson came within 15 mins of my arrival . and something happen DRASTIC AND DRAMATIC!

but in the end both rafe and kitson and yanxun and me ate togeher at BBQ chicken. was having fun cracking jokes to them and them cracking jokes to me as always . miss those time badly !. i guess next time we meet would be a long long time le . boreded ,sian-ed .

anw i was surprised to recieve ur msg . dont worry i will be okay and hope u would be okay too . tomorrow not going to the 4C outing . currently sick . anw it does not matter i go or not haha!XD .

gotta wake up damn late tomorrow haha! .darn it ! and pls stop mistaking me , my name , my personality and most of all stop misunderstooding me . pls .=.= one week of bad luck .

thoughts: when u are really angry , dont talk , orelse ur " brave and strong " words will hurt ppl because u dont think .
everyone pls do TC

2010-04-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

school start finally! first day was fun ! sorry no pictures! currently sick ,tired and etc=( want to post a long post but just dont kno wat to write . nothing exciting happen except....

darn it i shouted at my mother and sister for nothing . i was in a bad temper . SO SORRY=( .i know ppl seldoms comes my blog . so my blog is like my dairy. blog blog ! wasnt haven the best of the days this few days . trying my best already! currently my ez-link didnt work two times when i board the bus . damn sia and damn ps . although i dont know why i feel nth .

tomorrow going to school has two mission besides studying . go sign up for rugby and kayaking . hope i at least gets into one of thos two . studying is fun . getting to know my new friends slowly although they are .... erm nvm .. anw we were at the library and wow! my new friends made this library into a soccer pundits center=.= we were talking about liverpool how to improve it , save it and all those stuffs . (although we surppose to be studying ) nvm i came home and revise anw .

hope tomorrow woul be a better place .

starting to get use to poly but . i still wanna go back to sec 1 that time. we were so new and made friendships that are of 4 years . and still cont. now . business partners , help each other during tough times all those . and yes ! i know u all will forget but i will not . remembering all those times we had during PE, lessons . slacking and during near exam chionging for our end of year ! nv going to forget but going to miss those days .

and softball . i will nv know how to repay my coach . thank you !

thoughts: wat will i be like five years , ten years later ? no one knows but if i strife hard . life would be interesting. TC everyone!

2010-04-18T22:34:00.001+08:00

tomorrow going to start school OMG! I AM DAMN SCARE =(=(

thoughts: we seems to be drifting apart ....

2010-04-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

lets REMINISCE ! GOING TO MISS ALL THIS ! U ARE THE BEST ! 1B,2B,3C,4C! );

2010-04-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

OMG! SO FAST! ITS THE END OF HOLIDAYS LE =(

ALRIGHTS NTH TO POST ACTUALLY ! MAY HAVE PROBLEMS POSTING THIS FEW WEEKS! when i get use to poly le then post bah ! till then PLEASE EVERYONE TC ! ESPICALLY YANJUAN MY MEI ! =)JIAYOUS!

2010-04-13T23:19:00.004+08:00

today ! is exciting! lets do it AGIAN! =)

2010-04-13T23:05:00.003+08:00

CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!!not nice but still ok LAH! BACK TO HYPER MODE!!!!! although no one wants to bother with me =.= FARRGOTSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok ! today did go out and bought some clothes!!!! yay! finally! . BUT! IT RAINED =( getting frenched is not fun but walking in rain is COOLING! =). soooooooo FUN!Anw kitson's and Rave's timetable is .... OMG! WTF! will i get it too ???=( sadden! . alrights ! time for some pictures MY BLOGGIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh ya ! and we went to eat crepes! at ... er forget where le ! . =.= nvm! . anw someone forget to call me tell me about the person's PS-NESS ! BLURR SOTONG !

alrights thats all!

thoughts: can we ever live in a peaceful and safe environment?

2010-04-05T23:23:00.006+08:00

should have BBQ roy instead. sian! shall try .

see this two ppl . it took us two hours to cook and eat =.=

this is wat i call .'fire starter man'my hero

OMG! alive and kicking and u stick one stick there :(

kitson doing hard labour of sticking a stick through the prawns . OMG ! GROSS!

ITS monday!!!!!!!! Er is it?! i have been losing track of time and dates :(:( too addict already !!!!!!!! anw today went to EAST COAST PARK to play soccer. wow . not even on PAR to them =.=.

after that went prawning with 'cool peepos' hahah!! and that person keep ''awwwwwwww i caught TWO TIGER PRAWN !'' like very BIG! haha .

the other caught none . so the score is 0:1:2 . which is kitson 0 , i 1. roy 2. and he keep saying he PRO ...wtfanw u will think we caught alot prawns but . ( its a gift from the auntie there ) shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

alrights thats my short post for today:)

OH! and i nearly forget !!! happy birthday KEWEN!

thoughts:if u are happy i am happy then everyone would be happy . just live it happyily instead of just sulking throughout ur life . TC!!:)

2010-04-03T18:42:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is off to work already :) OMG! church ! i dont wanna go there . but i have no chioce :( . alrights then nvm.

well well been tempermental this few days . something happen that cause me to be like this . family i guess . alrightys..

take care all

2010-03-27T00:50:00.001+08:00

HELLOSSS!!! CraZY MEI CUM BEST FRIEND CUM BLUR GIRL . TC!(damn random!, who cares!HAHA!)

2010-03-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHTSTIES! monday is my mother's brthday . gonna make it special for her :) she has been working so hard. :( how sad:(.

tomorrow going to tam with roy they all . well see how it goes :) CHOCOLATE CAKE ! haha ! . BOYS AND GIRLS , ITS ALREADY WAY PAST THE TIME TO CARE AND CONCERN FOR UR FATHER MOTHER. they worked really hard to get u to school . yeah! i found it the hard way :( but at least i am young to repent . how about u ? think alrights ! :) . although my shingles are still not okay yet . i stil wan to go tam buy cake ! but i cant come into contact with BABIES :( how sad! . DARN it !

ok! me and rafe are officially ok! :D . air clear being high and rocking ur lifes ! haha ! . till then . goodbye everyone and stay healthy!!!!!!!!!!!

DILLY DALLY SHILLY SHALLY!

UNDER TREMENTDIOUS PAIN...

2010-03-23T12:19:00.002+08:00

its already six days . the pain keeps getting more painful and more painful. how can i have shingles. WTF .

this is sick . i know kitson and roy may not believe me . but anw if u dont believe . type it out in google and see it for urself wat friend i am for replying ur msges:) .

alright thats all i have to say take care everyone . :)

MISS THOSE GOOD OLD DAYS... (sad , tired , disappionted, misunderstood)

2010-03-19T22:17:00.005+08:00

RELIVING THE MEMORIES...

2010-03-19T22:14:00.002+08:00

I am sick . real sick . and i am tired really tired to even fight with u . so get off and mind ur things and shut up . i really dont wanna talk or fight with u . so shut up and stay away . Pls i am really very ill now . spare me will you? dont be so cruel . i dont need ur pity or anything , i just need u to understand . why cant u get it ? why? just too tired .

i really need someone to comfort me now .

2010-03-14T01:18:00.001+08:00

Got an inspiration thats why i blog today.

how should i start ? everything i know about u is actually a bit only . not even a scratch on the surface after all this years . OMG ! can i even see wat u are thinking ?? u are too complicated . so am i .

this few days i am like having a sudden moment of interest in everything . from going out to eating . i always say i wan then in the end cast it aside after i have it . wats wrong with me . :(

anyone out there still reading my blog anw ? life is always unfair unless u are willing to fight it .

my new lapbby is the same as kitson's alright . ya watever copycat . ok . monday rafe's gonna come back . cant wait to see his face and how he will react to us . will he still call us out will he talk to us ? questions and questions . but no answer

i wanna buy clothes more clothes , bags and shoes but just dont have the money to buy them . i am just trying to do wat i can to help my this little family . so troubled . all my little sister think is play play and more playing . ARGh! nvm i shall bear with it . harmony is the main piority:)

hope she will open her eyes to see that com and my uncles SPOILED her .

alrights .

hmmm maybe outer beauty is really not the thing that attract people but instead the inner beauty is the one that attract so ya all those people out there dont sad cause one day u will find one . :).

how i wish i can see cai hong now . till then see ya ~

2010-03-13T00:49:00.002+08:00

H.E.L.L.O. P.E.E.P.O.S!

guess i am too bored this free days and i didt terrible things today . so sorry RAFE :( forgive me . ur sayings inspire me to blog today .

FRIENDS
peopel who walk with u without putting u down or putting u aside . those are called friends . but those who reap benefits and appear once or tiwce in ur life thats call suckers ! those that cry for u and only appear on special occasions are called hyprocriptes . AND THOS THAT STICK THROUGH THICK AND THIN AND EXAMS AND HELP ME ALWAYS GIVES U A HAND IS NOT CALL FRIENDS OR HYPROCRIPTES. THEY ARE CALLED BEST FRIENDS. always ur best friends alrights . although this sounds mushy :/

ok anw i did something i really should have done . sorry to one person (not rafe) another person . hope that the person wont mind .

alice in wonderland was quite good . yes ? :D .

this short sentence is dedicated to yanjuan :
Hey my little sis. although u are sad and all those pls do not give up . i know something has happen to ur life and really . cheer up k . smile and look forward cause ur life is not going to be the easy one since u have chosen this path . so brace urself and move forward :) TC !

jasper : yup u are included cause u study in JC and we konw each other well BOY ! . anw ur life will be tough even though u are clever but maybe GP will put u down . so study hard . anw if u happen to be free lets go Bballing :) we three kitson me u . fulfilling our wishes or a lan shop and yacht ! .

ruiyu!: stop thinking le . cause the thinking is over le . so ya concentrate on ur studies and dont look back . dont seek perfection like jasper . seek a close perfection . nobody is perfect and of course u are not nobody . can de . work well :D

alrights !after all those dilly dally shilly shally . lets stop . good nightss!:)

2010-03-10T18:52:00.005+08:00

this is the game whch i spent weeks playing . and eventually finished it

this is one game i am playing one . which is quite ok . if not for the good storyline i wouldnt even buy!

soooooooooooo long since i last post . no one comes to my blog i guess ?? haha wont be blogging much cause i am trying to put pictures into blog but forgotten how to do it . OMG !. there are also other reasons which i did not blog . it is because i have been playing my PS3 too much le . everyday at least 5 hrs . OMG crazy guy ! alrights enough of this gaming life . at least for now, no troubles yet . i am cool :)

and RAVE is going to MALDIVES on friday:( how sad . whose interested in sending him off tell me :) . after he is back he will be a BBQ CHICKEN! haha! maybe its cause i am the same as rafe thats why i dont have friends . only best friends . hmmm wondering how my poly life would be .

alright and i am not going to the freshman orientation . dont beg me yanxun !!!!!! . unless u are god that can give us slots from 500 vacancies !.

alright enough of the small talks . tomorrow would be going out to IT fair and watch RAVE'S ALICE IN WONDERLAND . till then TATA:D

JIAN DAN ..

2010-02-19T18:42:00.002+08:00

sorry about not posting this few weeks . was kinda busy . everyone is busy with thier own things this few days . hmmm great . :) . wasnt in a great mood this few days . i am really scare of u now . is it really coming true ? . hmmm well maybe it is . two things in mind . starting to come true .

my dull life . stop trying not to reply me . things are not going my way this few days . instead it is going in my way . anyone can help ? . ......... guess no one . my newly bought PS3 was fun . but it is not my friend . it dont talk to me . kinda bored . can someone at least msg me or reply my msg ..?

No?

JIAN DAN de life is so ... good . no problems i see people this few days are just like suckers . keep attracting to people who give them benefits . it is not easy to find one friend . one good friend . jobs anyone? i finding one .

between 2B and 4C . 2B is better . no plotting around . simple ppl with simple mind . 4 C is ..... not so united afterall . one bbq is so difficult to attend? . cant blame u . i just cant do things right this few days . waiting for my poly life bah.

i am afriad . poly life is not very good . afriad i will be the only guy in the course . afriad to lose my secondary school friends which is slowly coming true . afriad of losing . i am afriad . joker

should i just let go or hold on . my belief in u is fading . hmm enough ! .

alrights lets see some pictures . bye!

YESTERDAY!

2010-01-28T12:01:00.003+08:00

picture taken in manpuku! quite nice . enjoy !

OMG OMG ! i finally bought my clothes ! . for the past few months i have been thinking of new clothes ! .

alrights ! yesterday went to buy clothes with kitson roy jasper and kendrick ! . kinda fun but my ankle got sprain! . didnt 'walk' much ! . stupid jasper and kitson keep walking so fast ! . ti liang wo leh! . -.-. nvm anyway today jasper and yanjuan go schooling le ! hope they will have fun ! :) .

today i totally cant walk much ! because of yesterday ! shit ! my uncle say its a tore liagment ! :( .

how sad . nvm ! next time then go eat ice cream buffet ! .

yesterday we walked the whole orchard ! some tour guide u are jasper ! . anyhow walk ! .

and can u believe it ! both of them spend a $100 plus ! in 5 hours ! sick ! i only spend $30 !.

alrights . gotta be busy now ! GOODBYE ! .work is tiring !

FRIDAY! 22th jan 2010!

2010-01-28T11:36:00.013+08:00

poor mr liew . he paid 200 plus for the meal :( kinda guilty but its over le haha!

the peepos who went :)

ice cream is surpose to be 'craft' out with that 'spade'

see yanxun . so strong ! bend the spoon .

it was surpose to be this clean until i kinda made a mess :P

and WALA ! the ice cream

the process of making the ice cream

cool right ?!

the thing that we can use to create ice-cream :)

OMG! my ice-cream man GUAN WEN !

ZW trying to show off his eating of mango pudding skills -.-

this is the place . marina squre :)

SORRY ! for not posting . guess u all will be eager to see my new post bah! haha ! OMG! BHB! alrights i shall start with friday :) night

as u all can see the pictures up there . the food at yuki yaki was so so . but me aaron and guan wen had fun . can u imagine pouring tom yum soup on the chicken which we are BBQ-ing . SICK ! . i didnt eat it of course . cause i dont like tom yum ! . but i think zheng wei eat it haha! . alrights thats all ! now going to watch hai pai !

2010-01-19T17:51:00.002+08:00

anybody came in ??? haha ! i guess most of the people cant enter my blog :) sorry haha ! cause my blog is cool ! HAHA !

damn bored because i am not working :(:( . finally catch up with others in watching HAI PAI TIAN XIN . OMG ! ep 12 is damn touching la ! i am lazy to post this few days too . TIRED ! .

have been playing much games recently . my eyes is going to be spoiled soon . recently watched alot of HK Dramas . Dramas like CLICK ru huang jin wu . this show quite nice . shows family problems , how they solve them and how they live in harmony . hmmm wondering when my famil will be like that . anyway this show also tell me not to see a one sided story . dont belive just one person . must gather more info before making a decision cause ur decision may cause alot of trouble , hatred , unhappiness , sufferings and most importantly hurt to the ones u love and did not wan to hurt them .

actually its difficult to know who u are . did u ever asked urself wat kind of person u really are ? if yes do u think u really know who and wat type of person are you? i dont think u will know . cause this could only be discovered by a third person . but a third person told me that i am short tempered , rash . i do things without thinking of conseqeunces . got to change this bad habits of mine soon .

YES tomorrow i am going to get a few treat from MR Liew . he is a good teacher . although there is one time where he was angry at our softball team for losing to a small team . but i think that he has this kind of thinking is because he last time was a national volleyball player and did lost agianst some small team . hmmm in the end he apologise to us . haha actually there was no need for that cause we understand :) . thanks MR Liew .

the info for the chalet would be posted earliest by this friday , lastest by next tuesday . i hope everyone will go . oh ya and maybe i made this chalet a mess -.- its so funny can , i cant call one perosn and not call the other mah . nvm i will make it fun i promise ! :) .

will upload pictures soon :) .
MORE HASTE LESS SPEED. (qoute of the day)

2010-01-14T20:08:00.002+08:00

i finally chose my result haha!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO TIRED !
my brain is rusting la ! stop talking ! rafe!!!!!!! chalet for my birthday is coming ! YES man!
more infomations will be told soon :) . pls wait while i process everything :) and pls reply me ! my blog is cool !!!!!!!!!!:D

1.CULINARY & CATERING MANAGEMENT(TEMASEK POLY) this one i must IN!!!!!!

2.BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION(SINGAPORE POLY)

3.RETAIL MANAGEMENT(TEMASEK POLY)

4.LEISURE & RESORT MANAGEMENT(TEMASEK POLY)

5.BUSINESS/LOGISTICS & OPERATIONS MGT/ MARKETING(TEMASEK POLY)

6.PSYCHOLOGY STUDIES(TAMESEK POLY)this one i anyhow de haha !

7.ACCOUNTING & FINANCE (TEMASEK POLY)

8.AVIATION MANAGEMENT & SERVICES (TEMASEK POLY )

9.INTEGRATED EVENTS & PROJECT MANAGEMENT(SINGAPORE POLY)

10.GAME & ENTERTAINMENT TECHNOLOGY (TEMASEK POLY)

11.EARLY CHILDHOOD STUDIES (TEMASEK POLY)

12.FINANCIAL BUSINESS INFORMATICS (TEMASEK POLY)

i hope i get into the first one :)

2010-01-13T20:15:00.002+08:00

16 points ! bloody hell not good enough . although my parents are happy . i dont really see anything good . hmmm but i will just live with it :) . nonsense ! haha :D . people nowadays are so scary -.-

stop crying or brooding over things that are already over . wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok joking time .

it was extracted from tian cai cong cong cong !.

a long time ago . three guys namely A ,B and C . they wanted to pit their archery skills . so they called a girl and ask her to put the apple on her head . shook!!!!!!! A shot the apple right off the head of the girl . the two guys then said :WHO ARE U? . A replied : I am robin hood !. this time B tell the girl to put the apple on her mouth . shooK!!! B shot the apple right off the girl. the two guys then said : WHO ARE YOU? .B replied : I am huoyu(who is the guy who shot down the nine sun , a character in the myth. )the third guy C then asked the girl to put the apple at her stomach there . shook! the apple hit the waist of the girl . the two guys then asked : WHO ARE YOU! the guy then replied : I AM ........................................................................................................................................SORRY .

haha dont know u all will find it funny mah but i find it quite funny . guys and gals . chill down abit :) smile !

2010-01-03T21:22:00.003+08:00

there is always a ray of hope shinning on u . so pls watever u do . do not give up k . :)

i have been spending alot of time with jasper, kitson, roy, xiaobai and my cousin . quality times :)

now i am talking to jasper and roy . somehow talking to them makes me happier . cause i can tease jasper and roy ..... erm ... haha being the idiot :) . this holiday i thought of alot of jokes to make u laugh and be happy . but it seems like , u dont need me already :) . my door is always open for u de . hmmm treat it as doing a good thing bah :):):):)

tomorrow my sisters are going to go to school le . haha not me going . i have been teasing them for the whole day . i keep asking them wanna go out tomorrow . haha ! . i am so bad.tomorrow i am going to be laughed at already !:( my hair sucks !

2010-01-02T23:07:00.003+08:00

2010

its a brand new year already. which means ...... MY BIRTHDAY IS NEAR !! FEB THE 5TH! i only wish for one present . PS3!. if cant then i only wish for everyone to be sensible and responsible and for me to stop being angry at useless things . pls!

on 2010 1st of jan , two person who made an impact in my life finally grow up . my mum really said something right . we should help others without getting anything back in return and i really wish to help more people in my life . SORRY RAFE . since u dont wanna talk to me its ok . i also do not wish to clarify anymore . its useless .

first of all : thank you yanjuan !:) u taught me alot alot . although i can see that i piss u off and make fun of u sometimes but this is part and parcel of growing up . i understand that cheering someone up is damn difficult because i did try it .

secondly i find that kitson mature le but pls do not try to dao people by not replying their msges . its important ! . kitson is not the old kitson we see le . he mature and understood everything .

thirdly thanks all my friends for cheering me up when it was in the month of may and june . i did cried alot . i really treat it as a lesson learnt . but i dont blame u . maybe its still not time yet .

liyao , this guy , i really got nothing to say , except . thanks for being my friend . i dont say u are the best but u are good :) . everyone has its bad point so do i . but i hope u could change that bad point . good luck

jasper . the guy who wants to be a perfectionist . a goal for u . u are a smart and great guy and friend . 4 years pass so quickly . u are still the same . pls dont forget me . cause we promise to buy a yacht to go out to sea .

roy . although he is irritating and sometime proves to be an idiot . he has a kind heart . and yes he is my good friend although he keeps asking me to treat him =/thanks roy

xuanjin . he is a great friend . i wont forget him . cause we met briefly . i dont see anything bad about u :)

kewen and junyong . both are jokers and a very good friend . 2 hunks of our class ?? haha ya i think . thanks for cheeering me up during may and june period . although me and kewen did got some problems before but it happen very long ago . bu da bu xiang shi mah right? haha !

ruiyu . in my mind u are very strong , smart and independent like singapore . but u are stubborn sometimes . accept people's help k? take care of urself and dont fall sick .

jiayu . i have nothing to worry about her . just that ... i am really scare . i am sorry . very sory to her . jiayous! he will always be there for u .

rafe. my best friend . recently just quarrel because of some trival matters . ok i am sorry my fault , nvm . u will always be my best friend althought u keep talking gibberish into me . i really can tell u everything and u cant tell me everything . just hope that u would be happy . take care.

xiaoli is another joker of our class . is basketball always produce jokers??=.= thank you xiaoli . thanks for ur help alot of times :)

ziao u will always be my brother :) yes u are . although u keep speaking to me bible language.
u are a good brother :) take care and god bless u haha !

yanxun.my game friend haha ! i will nv forget u de :)game friend!

madeline! thanks for all ur lame jokes ! XD although sometimes not funny :X

2009's softball is one that is unforgetable . its the first time we played home games with our friends watching us . the most memorable one is that hwa chong match . yes . all this fours years many memories of softball keeps coming back to me . i really enjoy it . from sec 1 we this batch cant even throw or hit properly to sec4 who we thrash hwa chong . softball taught me alot of things espicially my coach ,kenny goh. althought he is always disturbed by us . he merely laugh it off . yes it was enjoyable in this four years playing , studying and doing all sorts of thing that are weird and normal like catching in school . i really miss those days . yes i miss school . i really wish that i caould go back to sec 1 agian . sitting in class , failing my exams , getting good grades , disturbing people , feeling nervous for exams . all this . really makes me feel like going back . so fast i am going 17 soon . take care my friends . we will meet agian . i promise .

written by
wong zijie

2009-12-13T18:42:00.003+08:00

{Copy and do this quiz}This is a 30 questions quiz, every question is all about you.Nobody should be criticizing your answer since it's about yourself.Tag 5 Person to do this after you're done doing it.

#1-Your current Occupation?-SON!

#2-How's your Life?-SAMA SAMA

#3-Your Religion?-i go cheack first ... hmm wow i am a free thinker . cool!

#4-Have a Boy/Girlfriend?-Nah ! so ugly who wan sia !

#5-Favourite Singer(s)/Band(s)?-JAY CHOW!.

#6-Favourite Colour(s)?-black white and erm.... black whit again ?

#7-Any Pet Phrase?-i dont have pet ... wait i go buy first then teach it to talk :)

#8-Any Favourite Movie(s)?-No!

#9-What You usually eat for Breakfast?-i dont eat breakfast de sia.

#10-Your Favourite Country(ies)?-thinking .... hmmm .. korea!

#11-Have you seen a shooting star before?-no but if i wan i can shoot a star to see . so easy

#12-Have you killed a cockroach before?-i nv kill . it come my shoe for suicide-.-

#13-Have you went Snorkeling before?-simi lai de ?

#14-Favourite Number(s)?-1!!!!!

#15-Any wish(es)?-hope i get good good grades for o levels !

#16-JC or Poly?-poly la . people so despo for me to go in haha !.

#17-Day or Night?-day!#18-Sun Set or Sun Rise?-Sun Rise

#19-Cotton Candies or Ice Cream?-both sucks !

#20-Believe in Fate?-hmmm yaya !

#21-Do you have anyone you like?-its obvious !

#22-Do you want to see anyone now?-ya!

#23-Headphones or Ear Piece?-headphones

#24-Have you seen Death?-yeah! insects dying now .

#25-Reason you Last Cried?-HER LA ! so pathetic

#26-Reason you Last Hug?-dont wanna let go of you!#27-Reason you last Scream?-playing too high !XD

#28-What song are you listening the most?-kitson's blog songs !

#29-If you have Power, what kind of power would you like?-teleport! escape from my family !

#30-5 Friends you want to Tag to do this quiz.
1.rafe
2. kitson
3. i pass back to yanjuan !
4.ruiyu
5. someone pls be automatic thanks :):):)

2009-12-11T16:30:00.003+08:00

i have to clear some doubts on my blog . firstly i do not have stead. secondly , i congrats kitson because i see his blog . pls go see his blog to see wat i am congratgulating thanks !.

today is damn bored . i am like wasting my youth away . fuck ! . hey but surprisingly rafe called me =.= i thought he at china ?!?! rafe pls stop playing terminator . cause u always give me surprises and i scare one day i cant take it . [ANW RAFE STILL OWES ME PRESENTS !]

today i completely scaned the whole recuritment section and found ....... no jobs that interest me . i wan work until late at night and pay must be alrights and pls dont give me jobs like shit one . cant find .

damn i still owe yanjuan xiaoli kitson rafe ruiyu and alot people presents sia . i am dead.

i cant describe how boring it is now . maybe i will use a new word "BA" haha i think only those who watch storm warriors will know wat i mean :) ..

interviewing tomorrow so i hope kitson will help me . should i highlight it ???!!! HELP ME KITSON . or i will slice ur head off . i swear haha XD .

so darn boring .

oh and i really didnt know that people still look at my blog de sia haha . alirghts i shall post more often :) haha . oh and i found that kitson's blog has two very nice song :) . cool i will try to get that .

tomorrow will go out because it is really damn boring and sunday will be going orchard ion . here i come man .

sayonara:)

2009-12-10T20:33:00.003+08:00

CLASS CHALET HAS ENEDED....

back to my old life ... so damn boring !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i do not have photos for chalet because i am lazy to take haha XD . hmmm i see everyone's life is filled with fun , laughter and most importantly GIRLFRIENDS!!!!!!! see i bolded it haha ! its a pity i let go of mine . well nvm la . stop thinking start working . tomorrow i will be finding jobs . lets see which one i can do . SALES !!!!!!! i will be working alone ba . see who wanna join me lor . jiayous zijie !!!

chalet was fun . i think i am going to create another one bah :) . smile guys ! last night i kept thinking of u . i suddenly msg me and told me to msg u when i woke up . u told me u have something to say to me . i know wat u wana say so i stopped u . although i am totally hurt by u . i still must smile in front of u . take care of yourself . i know u like someone else but ... i will wait . i did cry i admit but i ... really dont know wat to say . i dont wanna force or anything . u happy i am alrights .

now i know why i prefer to be alone . its me alrights . alone i bear all responsibility , being together share responsebility . although better but its kind of a mess . say me selfish but its wat i am .

watched storm warriors and it was quite a good movie . i rate it 4 :) . yawns ! although jasper slept in the theater and was taken photos ! haha . chalet for 2 B . lets see first bah. alrights alrights . i guess i look like a bank this chalet cause can u imagine that people owe me 100 plus dollars ?!?!?!?! i may switch off my phone from 12 th dec until u come back then i on my phon ba . do take care cause i miss u alot .

oh ya and congrats to kitson .

i swear to nv have gastric pain agian , cause its really damn painful ! .

till then good bye all...

2009-12-04T20:24:00.001+08:00

GIVE ME A MIRICALE

2009-12-04T20:03:00.002+08:00

BLACKLISTED 4C MEMBERS of 2009
1.wong zi jie
2.J...........
3.L...........

this word keeeps flashing through my head .... i think i am blacklisted by my friends in my class . wat a joke . i am a fool . pathetic . the number 2 and number 3 should be clever enough to know who they are .

wat did i do wrong to be blacklisted ? puzzled ...

Wii Fi is so damn boring . i am so bored at home that i can stone at the sofa for 2 hours . how great . rafe is out of country and that means i have no friends to pei me . its so damn boring .

chalet problems are building up and some people are really .... fuck up man . just damn bloody fuck up . lucky this blog is dead and no one visits . i really am scare of losing friends . but it proves that i will and am losing friends . i changed for others but why cant others just treat me as friends instead of some damn bloody life bouy or ATM machine . i give up . i really give up .

i am not popular , not a great choice of friend and most importantly i dont mix well . maybe this is the reason . i really dont get it .

one thing i dont get the most is why is everyone backing out of the chalet the last min when i told them this one month ago ?? i already told them to be free on that three days but no one listen . fine ! no one wants to listen right ?! i dont wanna speak anymore ! ... anw also no one cares , so i also dont care ..

damn fuck up now.

2009-11-23T21:16:00.002+08:00

day 3 since i came back from my cousin's house ...

for this three days i am freaking bored at home ! DAMN BORED ! My friends out there are working unlike me who is slacking at home doing nothing ! I CANT STAND THIS BOREDOMNESS!!!!!!!!!

SAVE ME ANYONE?????????

i am really very tired this few days , my eyes cant seem to open wide ... i suddenly feel so lonely with no one to talk to ... only myself . chalet's problems are coming one at a time .... i really start to find that creating a chalet has no purpose ... chalet was surppose to be a class gathering , a time where everyone put down their hatred for each other and gather .. but this purpose does not seems to be appearing, instead it is fading , fading each year .

i am not perfect so i cant critcise anyone , i am also in fault , CASHFLOW problems may occur in the chalet . dammit !. the list of people staying for the chalet is diminishing fast . faster than the economic depression ....

IF this problems persist, i may not go for the chalet and go out look for work instead .

this few day's life seems to be quite slow and i really miss those old days with you ... I AM SORRY .

ok dont feel like talking le . good luck guys and gals . and take care !

2009-09-10T17:00:00.002+08:00

haha will update using this cause its much easier :D.. ok everyone good luck for ur prelims and N' levels

2009-09-10T17:00:00.001+08:00

2009-07-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

long time nv post le .. busy with stuffs lately .. life is so full of uncertainties . u wont know wat will hit you the next moment . but one thing you will know is that . if you are alive then be glad .

perfect?? rubbish . trust urself ? rubbish . friends forever ? doubting .

this few words are in my mind now .

now i know if u did something wrong it will forever be erected in ur mind . like a scar . nv to be cleared away . dont bluff urself just face the truth .

tomorrow NDP . alot people will be going .

o levels is near but i cant concentrate . self centered i am . i dont know how people think of me . but i know that . NEGATIVE . is wat they think . maybe positive for some .

my actual test for myself begins now .

23/10/2008. i will always remember that day . its good to have things then to not have them before . cherish ur love ones . and ya dont let go , hold on tight cause the person will also not let go .

2009-07-09T19:49:00.002+08:00

memories stopped here on
23/10/08

A new life begin on 25/08/09

when will it be ending ?

o level is here everyone buck up k !!! ^^
everyone's laughter is the only thing keeping me alive and moving on :) thanks !!

2009-06-17T14:20:00.002+08:00

so many people with problems like mine today
cheer up everyone !!! look on the positive side :)
smile and everythin will go away le ;)RAVE ROCKS
sorry cant help anyone today , very tired ar
i see other people like that , very erm dont know how to describe
and rave is stupid , he sitting beside me ... haha .

everyone cheer up k :) there is always hope in everything u do :) dont because of a setback or people look down on u and u dont feel like doning anything . there is still people out there who still apperciate ur talent :) is only u haven found them , life is full of ups and downs . problem is do you all know how to overcome them , do u really wan to overcome them ??

not everyone is talented in studying, nor is everyone's parents , friends or anyone u name it is perfect . its up to u to find out wat talent u have :)

so everyone stop brooding over things that are unhappy :) there are people out there who are more miserable then us . i trust that everyone of my friends after reading this post at least cheer up a bit k ?? dont sulk le :) i am not one prophet or wat but i just really wan everyone to be happy around me and stop thinking about things that are unhappy . because the more u think the more worse it will get . just forget everything and do things that arehappy for u all k :) smile and face everything . oh and o level is near le take care of urself everyone :) study hard .

this post is dedicated to someone , my friend and hpe that person would find the person's mood soon :)

2009-06-16T15:50:00.002+08:00

so long nv post le
its so boring to stay at home
clearing dust from my lifeless blog

just yesterday i found out that everything i know about my friends are alll nothing but.... fake
wats real is i have friends there for me , friends that backstab others , friends that talk behind other people's back , friends that thought they are very good but actually not , friends that are too proud of themselves ...
i now know that , i cant really trust anyone , not even myself , not even my family ...
one mistake and u will be condemmed forever and bonded by that very mistake u made.

well i shall stop talking about it le .. only those who does that knows who they are ..

yesterday was quite ok .. sorry kitson and rafe i know it was boring except for the last part which was kinda of a .. erm should i say fun and chaotic?? ... haha yesterday keep doing things that remind me of that person . need time bah :) . i went to iluma , which junyong say very grand de cinema == .. so so la .. watch terminator , and the show quite nice leh .*two thumbs up*:)
after that went to the iluma de arcade . wa then stupid memories came .. see la shouldnt have walked in .. even at iluma de entrance .. dont say entrance at the bugis mrt already have le==...
and yesterday dont know why like valentime day == alot couples at bugis ..

after that went to central buy sweet reached there buy le then they say wan eat the ba chou mee , say wat very nice , okay luh . so so la . [actually rafe and kitson dont wan to go de , but i force them go . Haha]

after that around 5 i think reach bedok inter and go to the karoke studio .. sing la and that RAVE . sing all those old english song == .. funny ar say wat chinese over le sing wat chinese song , sing english la ==.. sian diao...

ok luh after that i went home (but before going home , i was stupid enough . i had the urge that call me to walk through places that 'we' went . ) walk luh and emo .. fuck .. then i went home after that facing with faces that dislike me going out but they dont dare say anything :)

note:20 days since u left me , and still counting .
7 more days till that day .

thanks , yanjuan , rafe , kitson , jasper , ruiyu , jon and all those who encourage me :) .. i really need it and sorry for imposing troubles to yanjuan and jiayu .

no body msg me today , although lonely i still enjoy it ..

sign off . congrats ...

2008-12-31T19:11:00.007+08:00

2009 lai le . at last can clear all thos bad memories and reeefresh ourselfs haha ... ok bah let u all know wat i been through all this year .. sorrow happiness sadness grieve stumbled pain fun so on and so for so summarise it is sour sweet bitter spicy:)....

SOUR (sorrow and sadness and grieve)

my results for term one to two was er... kinda of damn bad like f9 for all subjects and only got one b3 for combined humanaties..wow .. but gradually my results go up le still not good enough .. and i made the team lost the camp cause of my results .. and kewen junyong kitson thay help me take the blame so sorry and i accidentally hit kewen while playing basketball luckly kewen was not so xiaoqi so we are friends back agian .. i know i sometimes very asshole but i did try to change le now still changing ... hope i will be better next year le ^^

SWEET (happiness and fun)

my results getting better and i think i wont slack le study hard ... and being with her for one and a half months were my most happest day of my life .. i can see her everyday i am happy le but happy things dont last long i know so look forward not backward bah... and thanks for all ur things i really realli appreciate it alot alot hope u would live better and find someone better :)... everytime i sad or angry u would try ur best to help me cheer me up thanks alot :) thank you ....and yanjuan too thank u yanjuan for cheering me up everytime ..:)

BITTER (pain and stumbled)

trianins were tough and not easy competition also .. injures were like everytime i trian or play competition .. but pian was worth it cause i know no pain no gain ... life wont be so easy de ... sometimes there are also difficult de things that cant be done .. but still must continue on ....

SPICY (angry and depressed)

been angry for almost the very small things ... think that no one care for me ... ya i now still thinking like that ... but i cant control myself ... lucky there is always her who is there for me and yanjuan too ... thank you both lots lots .... it isnt easy being my friends i know ... so sorry .... sorry everyone .....

ok bah i think thats all leh bah ...let me post some old picture for u guys orelse it will look dull on my last post ....okok i hope she go the dinner will be happy and i think she will look pretty :).... oh and kitson they all have fun without me there bah i think i go there make trouble only... ok bah good luck guys and happy 2009 ..

ahhh my team so cool i going to miss my senior alot ...

me and rafe so long le

nice weather to end the day :)

the two b-bians ... i meant last time haha and i know this only small portion of them

remeber this ?? :) miss seet we are going to miss u alot alot take care miss seet feel free to come visit us :)

2008-12-30T19:11:00.003+08:00

today went out .. didnt to see his face ... i wonder why my sis just cant grow up sec 2 le still so immature ... played left for dead damn nice next time go play agian ...stay at home really damn boring leh ... zzzz tomorrow rafe going for the countdown thingy .. hope that it wont rain:X ... haha if rain my bad mouth haha ... sorry~~ ...

today while running dropped my MP3 ><>

at least got someone concern me thanks yanjuan thursday maybe going out .... see first bah ... home so boring ... but last night quite fun i think got robber run to my block 6 or 11 floor then got police come ... its so fun but in the end nv catch dao the robber ....

new year of course got new wish la ..1 hope that i will pass my o levels 2. hope my class mates would pass to espically that girl who keep saying i wan work to me de3.hope that everyone would be healthy:)4.hope i wont break promises agian5.study hard6.hope our team of softball this year would get good results :)7.wish my ah ma and my popo can live longer .. the last wish is my really wan de ... actually all is i wan de ....i miss my ah gong ... sometimes i really wish u were alive ... listen to me talk to me ... i am so sorry for not cherishing u real sorry ...

i think i also say alot le bah kk thats all i have to say le BYE~

2008-12-29T19:08:00.003+08:00

sorry for not posting for so long ... no one comes anw ... no one cares anw .... no one bothers anw ... studying and busy getting blame for things i didnt do at all ... i give u respect u one respect also nv give back to me ... eldest always get scolded ... com spoil my fault i nv even touch it la my sis touch it spoil then my fault .. wat the fuck is wrong with u ....

study until so clever also no use dont know how to use ur brain ... kpkb .. i see u my elder so i didnt talk back orelse ... say u until u nothing to say ar ...

i know alot of people must have hate me now ... but who cares ... i know i dont hate myself can le ... four more days ... so slow .. can life get any faster ... get my cert and shut that fucker's mouth ...

this few days so boring but got a MP3 player ... dont from where dig de ... but quite new ... new see who wan go out maybe no one wans to go out with me lor ... nvm la stay cheerful :) ...

bye bye can anyone at least show me so concern ?

2008-12-23T20:57:00.002+08:00

backahce today ... its like so pain lor.... actually come to think so many people have change so do i ...but why cant people dont change wont it be better ??? friends wont need to be so kp or do anything that people dont like ... maybe if people are much more forgiving or much more genorous the world wont be in such a sorry state ...

i wondering why so people just cant under other people gave them a reason le they still there keep scolding that person ... next generations of people will be very pampered that means many people will tends to show faces or need to be treated like queen or kings ... so pathetic ... my family has one queen .. she gets all she wants ... parents is the one who cant think not us lor .... brainless people ....

so wat if u have alot of money can u bring it down to hell? damn stupid .. i rather lead a simple life no troubles all those things ....

2008-12-22T20:40:00.002+08:00

hellosssss everyone ... sorry so long nv post le kinda of tired ... cause working ,studying , worrying, training , planning , thinking, forgetting u, helping ,listening.... so many things but i only one person .. nvm cant help it everyone is also like that mah :) ... life is so interesting everyday there is surprizes and sadness and happinesss ... i like happiness better ...

actualy nothing to post de its damn super boring still wondering if i will go to that junyong put de christmas outing or go christmas service or go out with rafe .... wow so many decisisons to make .. ok bah nth to post le see jay chow de an jing i know its long le but quite meaningful k ?!!!

2008-12-17T19:09:00.012+08:00

YES!!! thanks for bringing me out then i got my FLIP FLOPS so happy haha .... and i wan to thanks someone for msging me last last night but i didnt reply ... dont say sorryto me its ok de ...hope u will live well and better :) ... today go trainin wa leg damn pain my hand too .. dont know why now stand alo pain ...>< friday going to work le so tired ok bah about yesterday let the pictures do the talking :)

evening liao like 6 or 7 plus see the sky so nice so took a picture rafe and guosheng(xinhui's didi) got caught in the picture

the bar where i go buy drink and food the food damn ex la .. gst also damn alot

haha they come sentosa only play volleyball liao all noob de me too haha no court mah so draw it out:)

YAY!! my flip flops haha ...

haha jon got buried then got ... see properly .. sorry i know my camera sucks><

the "ceremony for his burying " haha evil sia they all

this mug of pepsi cost me 12 bucks plus gst is 14 plus ... damn ex right ????!!!!

rafe caught de lala haha .. alive leh .. maybe next time rafe can be fishmonger haha ..

haha dont know how i got this picture de ... boring bah so took a picture of myself :) ... ps i know not shuai

hey~~ i wrote my name on the beach haha .. got smiley face hor haha ....

2008-12-15T19:09:00.011+08:00

wow i still can climb into the adventure park sia haha that means i am "small " haha childhood i no childhood ar ..

i am in the adventure park lor climb into the park the one in red is my cousin pink one is my sister tio stuck haha ...

walking in the adventure park saw this chameleon haha ... but nv change colour leh sian diao .. ==

my uncle aunty and the birthday girl and her brother aka my little cousin :)

the pool damn nice lor but i didnt swin cause was rainin

cool right behind the house got this thingy er like adventure park sia haha

FLYING FOX YAY!!! haha actually is a mini one la ... but i didnt ride cause i scare it will BREAK :X

the so called "tree house"and i didnt even any tree so erm well...

this signboard found inside the so called "Tree house"lor thats why i say its so called "tree house :)

helllloooosssss :) ... back to posting le cause i got pitures for u guys to see haha .... ok la my visit .. eh no no is my cousin's birthday :) .... so fun can ... can play eat ... today went trainin walao twisted my hand so pain la ... zzz so tired now ... i sheding my emo-ness cause alot people really care for me i dont wan disapoint them ... yay friday going to school de bookshop to work lo ... haha nothing to do now finally got something to do le ... haha ....

oh ya yanxun also tell me L.P zone got 50% DISCOUNT wtf i missed it ><>< .. so many things i wan to buy there .. now over le ... nvm bah wait next time ^^.. gtg le bye bye ^^....

"be affected by the majority people who care for you and not the minority people who care for you .. smile wont it be better ?:)"

2008-12-12T19:35:00.002+08:00

hellosss :) today's training is damn super sian diao .. haha cause i got abit asthma so nv go to train.. so sit there slack ... its so fun to play la but sian i cant play le will asthma attack .... now my com like a bit spoil spoil de ... don know why so laggy so sucky XD .... yay tomorrow going to my cousin's birthday see if i can get any picture mah haha ....

ok la i nid to fix my com short post ^^

2008-12-11T20:01:00.002+08:00

sore throat getting bad to worse .. talk also painful ... tomorrow's trainin dont know going to train mah ... see first bah ... flu also getting worse .. count count count and count i still left one more month towards EAST-ZONE bah ... got to work hard for that ...

today study and study so bored then got a list to do ... zzz nothing to do nowadays ... slack at home also very sian ... no mood de ... sian sian one ... i thnk she living better than me bah ... that will be good ... much better .... she told me lots and lots and loads of thing ... her sillyness ... makes me smile alot of things ... she gave me good memories at least ... "love a person because to u he or she is already perfect . and not to love a person to change him or her to the person u wan them to be" such a nice pharse ... :) ...

keep thinking of her is also not a solution so why not put this thinking into studying concentrate .. make it as ur strength :) ... yesterday dont know why accidentally bit my lips then bleeding ... quite pain but awhile only :) ...

so cold today .. hope she will take care .. i think she wont even look at my blog bah .. nvm .. adapting ...

ok bah gtg le .. bye~

2008-12-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

today my flu got worst my cough too somemore got sore throat worse .. making it worse ... i so cold now .... no one comfort me de ... kidda miss u alot when will u come back ? nv bah .. now still coughing hiax ... trainin today got hit by the ball agian ... hand pain pain de ...

somemore today walking on the road that time i thought i saw u when walk closer .. nah not u ... think so much still cant do anything .... dont know why people wan to say each other ... live in peace wont it be better?? no conflicts ...

next tuesday going out bah but dont know got who going ... Zzzz pls go everyone .. i wan go beach to shout it out .... better than coping it in my heart .... today something happen at training my juinor so funny la got hit by a ball slowly fall down then roll on the ground haha and its my first time i laugh from last week le ... so funny .. but laugh laugh half way wei tong agian ... gee wat a spoiler

tomorrow nothing to do ba stay at home .. zzz ... nv msg me back ... wow ... friday got training lor ... also very pain agian ba ... got match coming up heard that its going to be hard bah ....

ok bah thats all i wan to say .. bye~
"never give up without a fight"