holding her hands was the only moment me and her are couples........
Saturday, November 24, 2007
sorry for not posting these few days .... cause got training .... need to go to work ... so tiring ... so bored ... so sian ... zzz at least it tells me my parents hardship ..... at least i understands them better .....
thursday afternoon went to training .... pick up a ball to see if i could at least throw it but .... when going to throw it it feels pain ..... then after training for two hours like that .... i realised that there is a band camp .... shit i totally forgot about it .... i wont go if i knew that .... i dont want to see her....... each time seeing her cause pain to my heart .... i really want her to hate me .... so that i cannot like love her again...... after that ... somemore i dyed my hair cant go into the school so follow rafe's tactis...... look at handphone ... haha and i went through ..... but it was not so easy .... after that got guards go to look at the training ... so i took guan wen's hat to block for a while ... put on until like very emo like that .... put until when going to staff room to put back key ... then guan wen want this hat back ... lucky no teacher ...
so give him back then ... suddenly got guard come guan wen faster lend me his hat .... haha so when putting on that time saw her .... i like totally sian diao lor ....
next day went to my mother's stall to work .... wa so damn tired lor ... morning cant get out of bed also must get out ..... walao ... back pain somemore ......work for the whole day ... wa sian .... tired sia ..... work until 7 plus like that went to sit at my mum's stall nearby ... wa stand whole day collecting money .... then sit on a chair ... and after a few mins i realized that i was sitting where she first came to find me when i working ..... recollections ..... i dont know whether to laugh or to cry ..... remember her laughing at me when i did something really stupid ... remembering her when she was angry with me ... sad but did not cry ......happy .... seeing her smile to me the first time .... remembering how we from being enemies to being couple to be friends and then back to enemies.... hiax~~ i also dont want her to hate me .... but i ... really dont know la ... i also dont know why i want her to hate me or i hurt her ... i dont know why ...
xuan jin said was right we both dont look like couple ... i only did a little bit things for her .... holding her hands in the marina square was the only time when we really look like a couple ... the rest are like friends .... like this kind of love will slowly fade away de ... xuan what you say was right ..... and thanks everybody for helping and encouraging me this few days when i am down ....
keeping our memories to my sealed memories... i love her.. truly
but did not treat her good ....
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