I'M Going Crazy
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
This is the one day where i would feel piss off and being felt like a target that is easy to shoot, scold, beat or watever shit it is. Is it always me or is it that i am asking for it? I sometimes dont understand why has it gonna be like this. Is it cause my name is zijie thats why? or is it, i am an easy target?
Mind you but i am just trying to do something that i hope it would work. I guess this means, i am just a nobody . not even a single percent , a fraction , a dot or a microscope. I am just so tired of trying to impress and be close. Just so damn tired. A rest would be best now. i should do wat i should do. be selfish like i suppose to be, be quiet as i am suppose to do, be lousy as i am suppose to and be as navie as i am suppose to do.
Suddenly children world seems to be dull for a moment.
Its amazing how people views other people different in front of different people. you may be talking nicely to that person whie next moment, you are the best friend with that person.
Why bother trying so hard to suck up , imitate or try your very best to mix into the group when you realise, you arent up to that standard. like always.
Stop pretending you are cool and is like one of them . Because you just sucks to the very fucking max.
Walked with you @
12:32 AM
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Saturday, November 13, 2010
Recently , life has been a drag. something that is stopping me, slowing me down and blocking me. there are just times that i really feel like giving up . why has everything bad gotta do with me and every good has not gotta do with me? am i really so irritating so annoying so, fucking dickhead that everything i do seems to be something that is bad? i mean no harm, i just wanna have some happy life. i am not into anything, money comes and goes, friends. . . . are just some .. i dont know wat.
i am just ... freaking tired of being treated like a trash or punching bag where someone could just vent all their angers on me. i am innocent . i didnt do anything , so why must you keep blaming me?
alrights, lets forget it.
Well today was quite fun? did random stuffs say random things and my mind doesnt seems to be in the right place. i cant seem to focus on something. maybe i just need some sleep i guess. we had the IG Interview, alright quite cool with that but dont think i would be able to pass , i just hope i can pass it. i really really wanna be an IG. i wanna disturb next year's freshmen! i am prepared! for everything! .
Anw megamind was quite nice? haha ok! la not say very nice, but i nearly fell asleep in the cinema while my friend just keeps laughing? she really likes kids alot, that when watching cartoon she also will laugh =.= damn werid girl. and one more is like sleeping in the cinema for 30 mins which is like 35% of the entire movie?
Alrights time to sign off! goodbye world! time for lala land!
Walked with you @
12:52 AM
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