Saturday, March 29, 2008
alright alright guys ... i know i very stupid to let myself be stuck in this mess ... and somemore the mess is i created de ......
thinking of my actions ... the mess i am in ... the world revolves ..... so everything will still have to go .... time waits for no man ... nv wait for me ... not you ... not anyone ..... so i cant wait anymore ..... msg her last night ... everything just break through .....
letting go is painful but so what life still goes on .... let her go ... find other things to help myself climb up again .... my studies ..... all this years i suck at it ... i dont know whats taking over me ... i just broke down somedays ... emo myself somedays .. then happy hyper active one day .... split personality ... i guess ...
what rafe say really is right ... life still goes on ..... zi ao preach me ... my friends encourage me .... ruiyu help me by saying bestfriend ...at least there is something that she says doesnt hurt minyu make my day by saying "yo emo kia " natalie too keep saying me silly boy>< ... life seems to be better with all these ..... without u all there wont be me again ..... and sorry for the rest if i miss out ....
but the worse is i dont think the old zijie who is useless will be back ... i cant find him .... now is a stranded little boy lost in his own dream world ..... so if i emo dont scold me ... yesterday ruiyu sick i so worry .... now i still dont know if she better liao mah ... fever leh ... 39.9 degree omg ....wish she will be well soon .... every one of my friend who is sick i will care de ... i know alot of you all hate her .. dislike her .. say she bitchy ... i listen without saying anything .. but still these are all changes ... humans change if u all want me to be better ... my friends please dont keep scolding her .. or cause any hating between each other ...just shake hands with each other one sorry could make lots of difference
i know u all wont la but still this is my wish ... i wont and cant force u all ... now i wish my friends to be safe do not fight or quarrel with each other ... and most of all ruiyu faster get well ...
life still goes on .... this is the first time i write so long ... bye bye going off ....
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
arghhhhhh~~~ i hate myself damn lot la ..... anyone out there ..... haha lame~~ ..... i dont feel like talking these few days so if i dont talk dont say i act cool or emo .... i just dont feel like talking after something happen last night .......
which i dont know why affect me so much ... wtf~~ am i doing .... i also dont know .... i think and think so much last night ..... didnt sleep well last night.....i still cant figure out something .... no one can help me .... i am the only one who can help myself but i also dont know what to do ..... emo myself ba ..... T.T
yesterday went to the church that someone call me go one and that person hor .... aiya never mind .... go there then after that went to eat at long john sliver ... and there was a bell there ..... i and justin rang it ..... rang and rang .... lol actually quite lame la ..... then after that went play basketball with them...
actually the CC close one but dont care la just sneak in .... lol but no light how to play so went to other place to play lor ....... zzz .... after playing so damn tired la .... took a taxi home then fell into the bed and sleep but could not sleep cause thinking of her ... then she msg me la told me lots of things ... lots and lots of thing .... i cant ... i dont why la ... i was overcome by some type of feelings la .... i think she broke my heart la ....
so heartbroken now ... so if i didnt talk this few days ... sorry .... i am thinking of lots of things she told me .... i wish she would look at my blog ... i wish what happen last night was a dream .... just a bad dream .... i woke up in the morning .... found out that the msg was still there ... i dont know why i feel like crying la .... i so weak so idiotic .... so stupid .....
what should i do ..... i love her but she told me to direct my attention to other girls .... i wont ... i will wait for 4 years ... wait for forever until u accept me .... i so stupid ...
i got to go liao bye bye ....
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Friday, March 14, 2008
boring ... today went to school .... sian lor my homework left there la ... so went back to take it .... awww~ lucky i did finish le haha .......
met a new friend that stupid kiat sian keep saying my stead ... wtf ~~~~~~~~ ............ how can like that de .... zzzzz ..... i dont like him le la ...... keep on saying me la .... my blog dyinh liao la ... so damn little people -.-llll no is no peiople liao ... talking to myself .... i really love to talk to myself ....
shout all i want ... i wan a world of my own ,..... so that i could shout or do anything i wan ...... if really it is it would be good liao ... XD
today wanted to go to paul's birthday but cant .... aiya ~~ wasted ......T.T.............
nvm tomorrow i going out liao haha go watch 10'000BC ^^ .... yay !! so looking forward to tomorrow hhaah ... anyway talk so much still talking to myself hiax ...... anyone pei wo talk talk ...?????
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Saturday, March 8, 2008
walao eh ~~~~~~~~~ i totally cant belive myself i cried during a match wtf ~~~~its so pai shei la .... cry infront of so many damn fucking people ........ my blog is like so dead la T.T i broke down and cried on this day 07/03/08 ....... i finally know what is stress le .....
i had nv been so stress in my life before ..... i already tried my best not to cry le but cant hiax ~ i am so weak ..... i hate myself ..... lucky we won the match orelse i will go jump building le .... today went to SRC to see my juniors play matches .... washeh there hor super duper hot sia ... will die sia .... saw alot of choi bus haha ...but their standard too high le haha ..... LOL!!!! .....
the first game they agianst monfort lol they lost haha .... which is predictied ... haha .... i so bad sia haha ..... game ended me and some people went to play lan haha the person at the counter so GL la .... nb .... step one beng ..... cant stand it la ..... very unlucky nowadays .....
my blog dying someone help leh haha just let my blog rot ba like me rot like that haha ..... sian la ..... holiday so much homework .... bye bye signing off .... tag my blog pls ~~~
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Saturday, March 1, 2008
long time never blog le my blog seems very very dead ... but lucky got my so good de mei mei ..... help me keep the blog alive ... thanks yanjuan mei mei .... and the people who i miss out if i never say ..... last night conference with ruiyu and xuan ... so totally boring .... i talk ruiyu dont wan talk ..... then if i and ruiyu talk xuan will say me ... it was like what ...-.-...
talk from 10 plus like that until like 12 plus like that lor ... ending that time want tell ghost story but then someone scare ... i was like ... whats there to scare de ... ok la dont say le .... and i just got myself a new specs ... i so nerd lor ... haha but only ruiyu say its better ... the rest different no is ruiyu different la ....
now trying to train hard to get into SRC .... wish i could go into there .... but i dont think so .... i was so happy last night ... she finally message me ... (not ruiyu) .... she was not angry at me ... i dont even dare look at her lor ... she was so angry at me la ... i was like ... i very sad lor .... Hiax~now i so bored lor .... A.math .... from A1 drop to B4 wtf~~ !!!!!!!!!!... .... i dont belive myself la .....
i brought a couple wrist thingy la .... now waiting for my miss right haha lol ..... i now trying to test people bah .... by wearing specs lor .... changing myself abit ..... life is boring without changes .....
everyone stop asking her antything can mah .... and also dont ask me got stead le mah ... dont have dont have i only like someone that is
ruiyu la ..... so stop asking her .....
i no girlfriend hor ... dont anyhow say ar ..... ok signing off le .... remember to tag my blog ar :)
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