Sunday, June 26, 2011
Guess now, i am like a damn tired baby. I need so hugs, some time alone, some people around me and yeah . that.
I am tired alr. so please stop pressing me, i am going out of my mind soon. things arent making sense and they never will. you are saying one thing and doing another. whats the point? whats the link?
Commis challenge, business proposal, case studies, APEL, standized recipes.... oh god, its driving me crazy, YOU ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY.
Seriously, sometimes, you gotta use your damn brain or it will rottt. Gosh i am easily irritated today.
I need some time, i need some fresh air, i need some company.
its getting blurry now, guess its time to sleep . NIGHTS ALL!
Walked with you @
12:26 AM
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Thursday, June 16, 2011
Recently, maybe its my eyes having problems, or its just me, trying to hold back. my eyes seems to be watery, guess, my heart is spilt into many pieces. if my heart is alive i wanna ask , WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID! but , i guess all this lonely walks is not doing any good, it doesnt matters anymore.
Did we drifted further away from each other after i told you that? i am kinda confuse you know, why do i always make it so complicating?! why? i have so much questions! but i know i cant ask it. i have to suck it up and endure the pain alone. eh, sorry heart.
ok ENOUGH! i recently found out, i have a new habit, and its kinda freaking me out, this few days, i keep observing people's behaviour and movements. i wanna learn more about that. ARGH thats so weird man .
Recipes, recipes and more recipes. i dont hope this thing end quickly, but i hope for lesser stress! maybe its me. Anw, my sec school friends are asking me out, i seriously dont feel like going out, i hope to be stuck in my home, thinking about nothing, doing nothing, blocking out the world. because i know, once i am outside, i will think of you, i will miss you, I WANNA SEE YOU! and i dont wanna be so clingy or i dont wanna spoil . for you guys. HERE IT GOES AGAIN THINKING SO MUCH! . F.
I kinda like reading your livejournal , its so ...profound? oh gosh, i read hundred plus of it alr. and i was wondering why time is passing so quickly.
sometimes, i wonder if you ever think of me, or whatever. but sometimes, i dont wish to go outing with you all, but my heart wants and is dying every min i dont go. imagine the state it is in. PSSHT.
but, hey, i am not a flirter. or whatever it is spelt. i dont go liking girls anyhowly! << new word. but still, you are kinda special, unique, cute?, weird. it doesnt make sense! nothing does anw. chillax. and smile , i guess thats what i can do. for now.
I know its gonna be a tough ride for me now, its the worse and its hurting badly. why isit hurting me so badly? i am not sure why, but one thing i know is that, it hurts cause i like you, and its true, so yeah. i like you more than anything in this world.
in order to numb myself, LETS SPAM SONGS. currently spaming (the script- for the first time)
She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time
I've got a new job now in the umemployment line
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess, it's a God's test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best
Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my fight
But we both know how, how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt
Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Doing things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time (x2)
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
P.S your mood, affects my mood, your movements are nocticed, a smile from you, melts the entire heart of mine, life would be so empty , if you didnt exist so , please stay .
Walked with you @
12:29 PM
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Sunday, June 5, 2011
Sunday, a few more hours, school starts again. this few days, everything seems to be blurry, messy and black and white for me. Kinda screwed up this few days. I dont know why am i in this course anymore, no one gave me a reason, not even i. but i know i cant quit half way thats for sure.
My heart is in a mess too, i am not sure about this feeling, isit a crush? or is it just a friendship? i hate this feeling very much.
I hate it when i am talking to you and suddenly , everything just stops. Its just so....
i hope i can get over this week and go on to the two week holidays and try to know more about you, the feelings and everything else.
I guess i should stop talking about this! ok anw CCM are bonding well now, at least for most of the people. Its not that we wanna outcast you, its just that you outcasted yourself or, you just dont listen. sometimes, it doesnt kill you to not be so selfish, yeah you wanna win, yeah you wan good grades, but for first, think, getting good grades and winning at the expense of your friend, dont you feel bad at all? come on , its your friend dude, people must learn to co-exist or you can boody go dig a hole and just bury yourself there. i hope when commis challenge comes, he will change if not, the whole team is going to suffer.
ARGH! alrights. gotta go sleep alr and you are still online.... nah, nvm.
P.S For each goodnight or goodbye you said to me, i remember. stay strong.
Walked with you @
10:02 PM
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