Tuesday, September 21, 2010
This current moment. i feel that, i totally have no friends around me. just like someone being called upon, being pushed around, being used, being blamed. no one will know i even existed in their friends profile. Damn sick and tired. worthless toy, human, person.
Even people who are often critised or whatever it is has friends around them who talk to them, help them and provide them with supports. i just dont understand , maybe , this is how i am suppose to be treated.
my social circle tends to be within kitson, roy and kendrick. thats all . oh my. screw it man. i just wanna have more people to talk to . why no one replies? why people wanna kick me out of the group ? why has it always to be me? why why why?
i try to be friendly and approachable. But still, there is no response. i dont need any attention. i just need people to talk to me. but it seems like, only five people are willing to talk to me. the rest , are just . i dont know what to say. my words also dont carry any weights.
I dont have the courage to tell you things i truly wanna tell. i just likes to bottle up things. yeah watever.
after this, i found out , family are still the ones there surpporting and giving me advice and all those. thats why my father always tells me, family comes first than friends but i dont know why i just put friends first and friends, just put me last. so now , its just me and my computer for now. after that , its me and my assignments.
I cant wait to numb myself in books and knowlegdes. Woot. sucks.
Maybe this all ... is just a feeling only. i hope so .
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11:24 PM
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Sunday, September 19, 2010
Finally, ends finished, troubles gone! . now left with personal problems. hmmm so how am i gonna overcome it? should i tell you that, i really really do wanna be . . . . more than just that. i guesss its just up to fate now. alrights.
Hey to all those JC ppl out there , goodluck and jiayous! =).
dead blog i guess. better bah. i guess this isolation is cool =) . i dont even know what i am trying to say. guess , i am gonna talk rubbish agian. alrights. for this week , i had funs and of course there are some unpleasant things that came up. lets not talk about it. i am feeling bored this few days because of looking at my com for like 2/3 of my waking hours. OH my. eyes gotta get rotten soon =.-
Friends, hmmm . i dont know why, i dont feel like having friends suddenly, it sucks when you are down and one by one they come and pull you even further down.
Recently watching a show on channel 855 . nice show , that talks about our signs , as in aquarious ,aries, virgo and etc. damn cool.
alrights. i guess i dont feel like talking anymore, shall post next time.
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2:00 AM
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