Saturday, March 29, 2008
alright alright guys ... i know i very stupid to let myself be stuck in this mess ... and somemore the mess is i created de ......
thinking of my actions ... the mess i am in ... the world revolves ..... so everything will still have to go .... time waits for no man ... nv wait for me ... not you ... not anyone ..... so i cant wait anymore ..... msg her last night ... everything just break through .....
letting go is painful but so what life still goes on .... let her go ... find other things to help myself climb up again .... my studies ..... all this years i suck at it ... i dont know whats taking over me ... i just broke down somedays ... emo myself somedays .. then happy hyper active one day .... split personality ... i guess ...
what rafe say really is right ... life still goes on ..... zi ao preach me ... my friends encourage me .... ruiyu help me by saying bestfriend ...at least there is something that she says doesnt hurt minyu make my day by saying "yo emo kia " natalie too keep saying me silly boy>< ... life seems to be better with all these ..... without u all there wont be me again ..... and sorry for the rest if i miss out ....
but the worse is i dont think the old zijie who is useless will be back ... i cant find him .... now is a stranded little boy lost in his own dream world ..... so if i emo dont scold me ... yesterday ruiyu sick i so worry .... now i still dont know if she better liao mah ... fever leh ... 39.9 degree omg ....wish she will be well soon .... every one of my friend who is sick i will care de ... i know alot of you all hate her .. dislike her .. say she bitchy ... i listen without saying anything .. but still these are all changes ... humans change if u all want me to be better ... my friends please dont keep scolding her .. or cause any hating between each other ...just shake hands with each other one sorry could make lots of difference
i know u all wont la but still this is my wish ... i wont and cant force u all ... now i wish my friends to be safe do not fight or quarrel with each other ... and most of all ruiyu faster get well ...
life still goes on .... this is the first time i write so long ... bye bye going off ....
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