Saturday, March 22, 2008
arghhhhhh~~~ i hate myself damn lot la ..... anyone out there ..... haha lame~~ ..... i dont feel like talking these few days so if i dont talk dont say i act cool or emo .... i just dont feel like talking after something happen last night .......
which i dont know why affect me so much ... wtf~~ am i doing .... i also dont know .... i think and think so much last night ..... didnt sleep well last night.....i still cant figure out something .... no one can help me .... i am the only one who can help myself but i also dont know what to do ..... emo myself ba ..... T.T
yesterday went to the church that someone call me go one and that person hor .... aiya never mind .... go there then after that went to eat at long john sliver ... and there was a bell there ..... i and justin rang it ..... rang and rang .... lol actually quite lame la ..... then after that went play basketball with them...
actually the CC close one but dont care la just sneak in .... lol but no light how to play so went to other place to play lor ....... zzz .... after playing so damn tired la .... took a taxi home then fell into the bed and sleep but could not sleep cause thinking of her ... then she msg me la told me lots of things ... lots and lots of thing .... i cant ... i dont why la ... i was overcome by some type of feelings la .... i think she broke my heart la ....
so heartbroken now ... so if i didnt talk this few days ... sorry .... i am thinking of lots of things she told me .... i wish she would look at my blog ... i wish what happen last night was a dream .... just a bad dream .... i woke up in the morning .... found out that the msg was still there ... i dont know why i feel like crying la .... i so weak so idiotic .... so stupid .....
what should i do ..... i love her but she told me to direct my attention to other girls .... i wont ... i will wait for 4 years ... wait for forever until u accept me .... i so stupid ...
i got to go liao bye bye ....
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