Thursday, July 8, 2010
If you dont see me post things on my blog means that i am happy, but if i really do post on my blog, it means somethings has gone wrong for my day so i want to shout it out in my blog.
Wasnt having the best of days today. I dont know why i am always being the centre of arguments or maybe sometimes a punching back. Maybe thats just me, i really cant do anything, feel so weak, scold back seems like bad idea. i dont know, sometimes , its just best to firgive and forget, maybe thats why i am wat i am now, someone so xiaoqi. Why? cause all he feelings are bottled up.
Its just not right , just not fair, people of different calibre gets different treatment, while for me , i am treated like shit. it just takes one word , one sentence and it spoils that perfect image you have, but is this really wat i am suppose to endure? FML.
I like being alone but i hate the feeling of loneliness, no one understands me well, not even myself, damn pathetic. When i am happy , i am alrights if you keep pour" cold water" on me or keep say me, trying to be funny and scold me for no reasons, nevermind, i take it , hold it back. But if i am really down and you tried to scold me , you know i will tell you to fuck off. so pls , do me a favour, treat me as human being, not some fuckers who you can use for scolding. I am tired already. i know people dont like me, i dont live to serve them but still if you still hate me, think about yourself first, cause maybe you are the one who started the whole thing first.
So much shortcomings, so much unevens and so much fuck up life, feel like giving up.... does this happens to anyone? nah. maybe to me ya. Maybe i should just keep my mouth shut and dont talk .
Sometimes giving in too much may back fire, so stand up, beat those things down and hold that line, although no one supports you, try your best to fight.
ok now its damn emo ... fuck it. alright moving on now after i vent all my anger here. alrights! see ya!
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