Monday, October 18, 2010
I am damn tired today. kinda got woken up thrice today. as always . the only time i get to sleep peacefully is when i am at my own home. my own home is very peaceful and quiet. when i wake up i see sea! and coney island. its damn cool. the morning mist is really really nice. when its raining it is very cooling.
This few days, things around me seems to changed dractiscally. i seem to be losing things, quite, no very fast. I am tired of nonsense, comparing, complaining, listening, Being called upon like some slave and tired of people wanting to challenge me. i dont like this. stop comparing me or challenging me. If you think you are the best, then alright you are the best. tell me for wat? i dont wanna know such shits. and stuffs. I am tired of crapping with you all. really really tired. i wanna cut off all connections with the world.
I guess i really needs some time out. I need some where i can be alone, some where where there is no complaining .
so this is how the real world is like.
I know why i always feels left out. thats because, everyone has a friend whom they can talk to . but my friends are always busy, my parents are always busy. my friends are always others friends. i seem so left out. i am always left out of conversations. Maybe its just that you all are so high up but i am so low down there. I guess i would not be able to reach you all de standards.
so this is how aquarius people is like, low self-esteem. When i am not cut out to be like that, i try my very best to be at there. althought i dont very much like F&B line. i do my best to learn so as to help my father in future. I dont wanna see my mother or father at their old age, having to raise me this kind of a useless son. My father also dont have a very strong heart, so i really really wanna grow up real fast to help him manage his business help him think help him in everyways i can. As for my mother, i really wanna help her . i wan her to have her rest after all this years. i wan her to go around the world with my father to look around. my mother doesnt even step out of the house to go shopping because of me and my sisters. She is afraid. so i must really grow up and learn .
Actually my real dream is to become a pilot. i wanna travel around the world looking at diff things. but that has to be shelved =) . so i hope i will be able to in the future.
Alrights. thats all i guess. see you .
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